470 - 2020 in conclusion - Books

Oh dear... the previous update was in April. What did I say? I can't up hold my own promises to keep updating, at least once a month. ONCE A MONTH!! It's not that hard!!!!!!!

Ok, as usual, compiling the lists of books and movies I have seen this year so far. 

From Goodreads, I had read 50 books so far. Woohoo! Including 4 mangas in it. If I really wanted to add in mangas into the list, it would be a way longer list, so, I will just exclude the mangas (picture books are counted), making it to 46 books this year. Yay! Much much more than the previous 2 years combined!

Ok, here goes the list of books, in reading order.

January

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February

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March

21st - Secret Hero Society #3: Detention of Doom by Derek Fridolfs
27th - The Faerie Wars Chronicles #2: The Purple Emperor by Herbie Brennan
30th - Howl's Moving Castle by Diana Wynne Jones

April

03rd - Contender #1: The Chosen by Taran Matharu
05th - Good Omens: The Nice and Accurate Prophecies of Agnes Nutter, Witch by Terry Pratchett & Neil Gaiman ( I did not finish the book the in 2 days. This has been a long time reading of my, about a year????)
06th - The Faerie Wars Chronicles #3: Ruler of the Realm by Herbie Brennan
        - Guardians of Magic by Chris Riddell
08th - The Faerie Wars Chronicles #4: Faerie Lord by Herbie Brennan
09th - The Faerie Wars Chronicles #5: The Faeman Quest by Herbie Brennan
10th - The Trials of Apollo #1: The Hidden Oracle by Rick Riordan (again, I didn't read this book in a day, I read a few books at the same time and finishing them off consecutively)
16th - The Trials of Apollo #2: The Dark Prophecy by Rick Riordan

May

06th - Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief by Rick Riordan
17th - Six of Crows by Leigh Bardugo
25th - Neverwhere by Neil Gaiman (long time reading this too)
27th - Crooked Kingdom by Leigh Bardugo
28th - Castle in the Air by Diana Wynne Jones

June

01st - Shadow and Bone by Leigh Bardugo
05th - The Lunar Chronicles #1: Cinder by Marissa Meyer
09th - The Lunar Chronicles #2: Scarlet by Marissa Meyer
13th - The Lunar Chronicles #3: Cress by Marissa Meyer
15h - Stalking Jack the Ripper by Kerri Maniscalco
26th - The Merciful Crow by Margaret Owen
        - The Lunar Chronicles #4: Winter by Marissa Meyer
30th - The Lunar Chronicles #4.5: Stars Above by Marissa Meyer

July

02nd - City of Ghosts by Victoria Schwab
10th - Shades of Magic #1: A Darker Shade of Magic by V.E. Schwab
27th - The Red Pyramid by Rick Riordan

August

02nd - Henderbell by J.D. Netto
31st - Shades of Magic #2: A Gathering of Shadows by V.E. Schwab

September

04th - Blackbringer by Laini Taylor
14th - Winternight Trilogy #1: The Bear and the Nightingale by Katherine Arden

October

08th - Shades of Magic #3: A Conjuring of Light by V.E. Schwab
19th - Winternight Trilogy #2: The Girl in The Tower by Katherine Arden
20th - The Royal Rabbits of London #2: Escape From the Tower by Santa Montefiore, Simon Sebag Montefiore
26th - A Court of Miracles by Kester Grant
31st - Winternight Trilogy #3: The Winter of the Witch by Katherine Arden

November

09th - Sabriel by Garth Nix
20th - Strange the Dreamer by Laini Taylor
24th - Lirael by Garth Nix
30th - The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue by V.E. Schwab

December

01st - The Fox and the Star by Coralie Bickford-Smith
03rd - The Green-Eyed Prince by Brittany Fichter
08th - The Great Library #1: Ink and Bone by Rachel Caine
17th - Hunting Prince Dracula by Kerri Maniscalco
25th - The Blackstone Ritual by Swearinger Durham

What a looong list. So happy to read so many books this year! Mainly because of the COVID thing, I got the time to stay at home and read. Read. Read. From Goodreads, the shortest book I read was < The Fox and the Star> 80 pages, and the longest book was <Winter> with 824 pages. The difference!! 

Anyway, I got to buy lots and lots of books. We started ordering bookcrates too. Lol. All the way from U.K. and U.S.. The shipping fees made me cried. Hahahaha!!

Very honorable mentions that were not in the list, I finished the whole Haikyuu!! manga this year!!! I got up to speed on time for the author to finish off the story this year!!! If you haven't read it, go try it!! Really, really good sports manga. If you find it difficult to jump straight to manga, try the anime first. Just the first 2 seasons are enough, and then try reading the manga. Yay! Another series I finished this year was Battle Rabbits. I reread it again. 

I read the most number of books in April, 10 books? Lol. That was lockdown month I think? Or later? Anyway, this year, I finished off a few series/trilogies sort of.  Faerie Wars Chronicles, Six of Crows, The Lunar Chronicles, Shades of Magic, and the Winternight Trilogy. I practically polished off The Lunar Chronicles in a month. Sis said I was reading too fast that I didn't enjoy the books fully. Well... maybe? But I just want to know what happen next! 

There are a few surprise reads for me:

Six of Crows & Crooked Kingdom

Sis introduced me to this dulogy. These were high pace and no nonsense. Love it. Six main casts doing illegal high-stake stuffs. Yay. And the dynamic between the 6 of them.

Howl's Moving Castle & Castle in the Air

So different from the animation movies! They have more characters in the books! All told from one person pov. 

The Lunar Chronicles

I never would have thought I would have like an East Asian character in an YA book so much. KAI!!!! KAI!!! And Cinder is a half? I think??? I'm not sure anymore, but KAI!!! EMPEROR KAITO!!!!

Winternight Trilogy

My favourite trilogy I've read this year, I think. Initially, it was not easy for me to "get into" the book. After a few chapters, I got the hang of how the author might want the flow of the story to go, I got slowly into it. And.I.Am.Not.Disappointed. This Russia folklore-theme story, I never thought I would have like it that much. Story started of with main character being a child, and gradually grew up to an adult throughout the story. It's painful to grow up, reminded me of the Httyd books. Really painful.

Sabriel

Ahhh!!! I like Sabriel!!! So much that I find it difficult to read the second book in the series, because it's not about her anymore. T.T And then I found out what happend, I lost interest in the 3rd book. >_> 

Anything from V.E. Schwab

Shades of Magic, City of Ghosts and Addie LaRue. Read 5 books from her, City was for younger readers and felt so different from Shades, and Addie LaRue is a total different direction. The writings in Addie LaRue was so beautiful. Really. 

Well then, those were for 2020. 

Now onwards to 2021. How many books should I put in the Goodreads challenge? 25 books, I don't want to set the target to high or I will get intimidated. I have a few books I want to start on. My "Want to read" list in Goodreads is forever growing. XDDD It's 59 books now. Hahahaha!!!

So, I am aiming to finish The Great Library, The Trials of Apollo, Stalking Jack the Ripper (2 books left in my list!!), Gilded Wolves series/trilogies/duologies. And some other standalone books! Hope this would be another great year in reading for me. Wanted to enjoy it to the fullest! :)

467 - Of 2019

Well, the previous 2 posts were about books and movies and dramas I have had the chance to enjoy in 2019. Now, for this, I just want to conclude things I suppose...? Geez, I'm finding reasons to update.

So, I read 8 books in 2019. Hahaha. What a declined from... years ago. I don't think I did well in 2018 too. Oh well. My movie/drama list were much better. Haha. I spent more time on my phone in 2019 so... neglecting my readings.

Going through 2019, see if I can remember any interesting happenings through the year.

Final installment of How to train your dragon series came out at around January, and we all went crazy with multiple watches in cinemas. Got the chance to watch it in IMAX in Malaysia too. SOOO HAPPY. Was damn exicited at that time, despite having watched it a few times in NZ already. Lol.

I know that I bought my current phone somewhere in March. It's a OPPO R15Pro, Nebula purple colour I think? Can't really remember the name. Well, uptill now, I don't have much complain about it yet. I adopted the idea of changing phones within 2 years, to avoid having said phone when dead suddenly on me. I don't want to experience another Samsung Galaxy SII episode again. That was a nightmare. I lost all my South Island trip photos and my sis's graduation photos as well. Urgh. Same situation will go for my laptop too. Not going to be using it long, unless I bought a really expensive one that worth keeping long. The one we bought from Kuching, bland. I mean, it looked the same as every laptop on display in the store. I want a Dell XPS, but what did the salesman say? It's not much different bla bla and more expensive. I know it's more expensive, but with the functions it has, I think it is reasonable. But then, they don't have any stock on hand, if I want one, they will need to order it. What the heck. I might as well just get one from NZ. They always have stock unless I want it customised. Geez. So in the end, we get a bland looking laptop from Acer. It looked totally the same as the one sis's is using. I sometimes mistook it. Only the stickers on the keyboard area are differerent. So frustrating! And I bought antivirus for my laptop too. Finally. Or else just relying on the accompanied software, I don't think it was enough.

Something sad happened somewhere in March. Mass shooting. Where? In FREAKING NEW ZEALAND. And of all places, CHRISTCHURCH. What is wrong with this people?!!! Condolences to all the people involved. I was so damn happy that the Prime Minister passed the gun control bill in NZ. It was so fast that it shook the whole world. I applaud the PM for this. My wording might be abit weird, but you get the idea what I am saying.

Somewhere in April, we got MAP678. Yay. Father was with us in NZ.

In May, Bulbasaur was so damn cute! My first time doing Medical Check in NZ, after all this year. And wow, the speed was so fast! Just about 2 hours? Every procedure done. Or maybe a bit less than that. Not like in Kuching, OMG. Need to arrive there so early in the morning before the clinic opens and queue for it. Even though we have made an appointment for it. Well, in NZ, I think they have like only a few slots available each day for it, so everything is faster. And once again, I experienced the lightheaded, and almost blackout. I hate doing blood test. Ah! I remembered this. Weeks later, or so, I went back again for another blood test. Geeezzzz. That time round, I was prepared for it. The first time I wasn't expected that, so maybe I got a bit panic when I left the room. What with the sudden black patches I kept seeing everywhere. Took me quite sometime to recover in the Sitting Area.
I think it was somewhere in May, I went into a small Hyun Bin frenzy mode. I tore every part of weibo and so to look for his movies. Of all, I like the 4 movies I watched multiple times of. The Swindlers, Confidential Assignment, Rampant, and The Negotiation. I was in awe for Confidential Assignment. Man! The man could hit and punch. It was so enjoyable to watch him hit stuffs. Same for Rampant. He's cutting zombie with that big blade. And maybe he was the main actor, he's so un-killable. Hahahahahaha.  For The Negotiation, wow. A villain. GOOOOD.

June... July... August...

SEPTEMBER. Huh?? Did anything happened in September? No...?

Ok, October. Charles's Wedding!!  Congratulations once again! Even though none of you are reading this. Hahaha. We went Australia for this. And followed by a small trip to Gold Coast. :)
By the way, I found peanut butter in NZ!! I am ignoring all the other peanut butter I saw in the supermarket. They are tasteless. I found this peanut butter that actually tasted something and nice! Checked the label, Made in USA. Hahahahaha!!!!

November??? Can't remember..

December...Oh well. I can't remember much. HAhahahahaha


All around the year, I could just recalled that, we went to quite a number of places to try new food. We went for Crepes, we went for Japanese restaurants we never been before. And the only new ones I enjoyed immensely was tomi. THE FOOD WAS SO DELICIOUS.

Some colleagues left for home etc. Some new trainees. Some useless colleagues.

Most important of all, I have been shipping 00Q so hard this year. OMG. The new 007 movie is coming out too!!!

I started playing Switch more towards the end of the year. We have now Sypro, Pokemon Shield, Ni no Kuni, Zelda, Pokemon Evee, Dawn of the New Riders...etc.

And on the sad note, ARASHI is going on hiatus at the end of 2020. This they announced beginning of the year in 2019. ..This.. uptill now I am still frustrated and upset. For their 20th anniversary, they tried lots of things. They opened up social media accounts. Twitter, YouTube, Weibo and Instagram. I am ignoring tiktok because I don't have one and I find it weird. They are trying to get close to their fans. Furthermore, they released all their singles in digital platforms too! The first group in the company to do this. Their latest release is on digital too! There's no updates whether they will be releasing the CDs not... I want CDs to be honest. I like physical copies. To mark their 20th anniversary, recently they collaborated with Netflix to release a their own documentary. I think I might need some courage to watch that. I can't really deal with seeing frustrated Jun-san. After the announcement, all I want to do is give him a hug and hope for the best for him. He poured so much into this, and like he said, going into hiatus and stopping everything he had been doing all this years, was like killing the thing he love the most with his own hands. I couldn't even begin to imagine how that feels. That was what got me so angry and frustrated.



There goes my mood....

461 - First day of the tenth month in 2019

Dammnn. I am really behind in my reading. Only 3 books complete so far. NOOOOOO

I have been investing most of my time on reading fanfictions apparently. What with drowning in the same ship all over again. I realized, second time round is much more....hm.. Impact is much heavier. Hahaha. I can't seem to get my hands off my mobile phone or laptop to search through the tags of my ship.

If up til now you're still confused what this "ship" thing I'm talking about, then cheerssss. No need to worry yourself over it. If those that have shipss that you're invested in, well, glad you have. XDD

I NEED TO START READING PHYSICAL BOOKS. I know there's kindle or so, no need physical books. But hey, I prefer reading physical books. Period. Unless it's fanfictions. That I don't care whatever type they came in, as long as I can access it.

Other then that, I constantly craving fried chicken this few days. I wonder why. Fries is an ongoing affair, but fried chicken? I thought that was occasional.

Work has been fine this few weeks. What with my shifts consisted mostly morning shifts. Yay. But this will stop soon. One of my colleagues is taking a long leave soon, so, besides me, who's going to cover? Hmm?

And apparently, this is the first post of the year?!!!

WHATTTT.

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I have been binge watching movies and drama recently. All around just one actor. I'm practically doing a small marathon of his movies and dramas. I still do selections, I don't watch all of in his filmography, some I just not that into, the settings and periods etc.

I am crazy. 

The list of characters that I have watched in chronological, hmmm....  Let's see....

This goes years back, I think?????? I wonder which one first.

高长恭 — 刘章 — 霍去病 — 师傅 — 尉迟真金 — 师傅 — 项羽 — 袁帅 — 八阿哥 — 胡医生 — 刘东 — 林然 — 卡索 — 吴居蓝 — 华振民 — 欧阳逸飞

嗯，应该就是这样吧。

心里排最高的是尉迟真金~ 嘛，每个都有我喜欢的点吧。

高长恭很护妻而且霸气；刘章是他少数英气逼人的角色而且爱美人放了江山，干退下保全；霍去病出场太少了哈哈哈；师傅这个呆萌可爱的存在；尉迟真金帅死了打架流畅死了傲娇死了；项羽很贵气霸气存在感超强看着虞姬笑开了世界也跟着亮了；袁帅这个放的很开的搞笑善良人；八阿哥性格火爆不过专情死心塌地情绪变化超级明显而且有点苏；胡医生出场也太太太少了；刘东整身上下苏死了尤其那一点点的寂寞孤独感；林然性格真开朗呐；卡索王这个大弟控很美尤其两边辫子穿戴整齐的时候；吴居蓝慢悠悠颜值超级高；华振明好可爱啊话一直说不完；欧阳逸飞我还在第一集。嘿嘿嘿嘿嘿

很期待7月的《四大天王》，还有不知道什么时候上映的《刺局》和不知道什么时候播的《知否？》和《江山纪》。呵呵呵

454 - I'm tired.

Well, I should probably mention Justice League since I was all hyped up in the previous post.

My favourite scenes: Everybody Knows sequence, Amazon vs Steppenwolf sequence and... I don't know anymore. The opening scene with Batman on the gargoyle thing is gooood. Supes turning his head to look at Flash. And when the 5 of them are in the Krytonian ship, there, MOS themes are heard, softly, and then gone. That's all.

IT WAS DEFINITELY NOT WHAT I HOPE TO GET FROM THE TRAILERS I HAVE BEEN WATCHING MULTIPLE TIMES.


Please skip reading onwards, it's just me ranting, ranting and ranting about Justice League.




I warned you.





The damn music is so damn wrong! What the hell is that. I get that nostalgia stuff but tell me, does it  blend even the slightest into the movie tone? I don't know about you but the themes just felt cheesy when put in context with these modern interpretations of the characters. There's no continuity from the previous two films, and from WW. What the hell have you done?! Film score is also one of DC films' uniqueness. Shit.
By the way, Cyborg, Flash and Aquaman don't have a solid theme for themselves. SOLID. Flash has his..sort of tickling theme whenever he's running, I can't remember anything for Cyborg or Aquaman... That's so sad... Batman and Supes are just the old themes. Way old themes. Overused themes. And WW, what we have from the WW film are great, Rupert Gregson-Williams did an amazing job building on the WW theme created by Hans in BVS and added his own twist. In JL, WW's theme just got watered down... I NEED THE ELECTRIC CELLO.
The best music in the whole film? Everybody Knows, and the short MOS theme in kryptonian ship.

Next, the dialogues. Where are the dialogues we have heard from the trailers?!!!! I was waiting for "My turn" from Batman!!!!!! That's important!!! Replacing if with "...didn't bring a sword." What's that? Slandering WW is he?! It's funny on that second, and felt wrong on the next second. Batman just spit out weird dialogues sometimes. "Something is definitely bleeding." That's... he quipped during/after battles now? Huh? From my understanding, Batman is the silent and brooding type. He doesn't usually put focus on himself, or preaching his condition to others etc. He will definitely keep it to himself and continue on fighting...
Besides that, Ma Kent and Lois's scene. .... Wha..what? Why is Ma Kent saying things like this to Lois????? Huh? I don't get the humour in the situation. Awkward as hell. Is the dialogues on the TV necessary??
And the heist scene with WW. THE MUSIC JUST PULLED ME OUT FARAWAY FROM THE CINEMA WHENEVER I HEARD IT. ??? I really dislike it. It sounds so comical. And the dialogues, "I'm a believer." Huh? Believe in what? There's no confrontation, at all. Mind you, they cut the scene where WW wiped the floor with the terrorist. And really, there's no reaction from the government? It felt so isolated, especially in such a public place. The whole building is being held-up by the terrorist! Don't tell me nothing is being done by the government or law enforcement in that period of time. We saw some police or swat team outside the building, wouldn't the terrorist warn them not to come into the building or so? Huh? No scenes for that?

Next, the photography?colour grading? . I'm not an expert in this, so I don't really see any difference on first glance. I know this sounds weird, in JL, Batman just look ugly in some scenes. In BVS, he looked sexy. I know some of you will definitely find me weird saying it like that. The way he was being shot in JL, urrgh, some are just awful. Grrr.....
The colour... for some reasons, Batman/Bruce looked pinkish in some of the reshoot scenes. Pinkish. PINKISH. And, he lost some of his grey streaks in some scenes too. Did they make him younger or what????
Also, why did I kept seeing WW's backside shots?? Why? And Flash face-landing onto WW is a step too far. I got angry. Why would this happened in a battle? Naturally, when WW went and covered Flash, their position wasn't like this, how did it end up like that? WW is basically lying flat on the ground. Huh?
The scenes in Hero's Park.... The first trailer we got, it was during dawn or dusk, at least the surrounding was not bright day. Now we get fighting in bright day light. It's like they enhanced everything to daytime. I don't know what Zack had intended for this scene initially, but I would really had prefer if it's at night.
I didn't even feel the slightest emotional in the Hero's Park scene. Nada. That's so sad. That's supposed to be the center of the film!!!!

I AM SO DISAPPOINTED WITH WHAT WE'VE GOT FOR THE FIRST EVER JUSTICE LEAGUE FILM. WHAT HAVE YOU DONE WB?!!!! You really have no idea how all these are important to the day1 fans, aren't you. I couldn't really considered myself as a day1 fan cause I didn't get into MOS until later years. I was not really into CBM at that time, just Batman. MOS makes me appreciate this modern interpretation of Supes. I'm not a Supes fan. I'm a fan of Zack and Henry's Supes, that's all. If you take away Zack's Supes, it would be just normal Supes for me but with Henry, all I care at that point would be Henry, not Supes.

Ok. I want to say things I like in JL.

As I mentioned before, <Everybody Knows> and everything with the Amazons are my favourites! I recognised Zack's style in it. Easily.  With <Everybody Knows>, we were teased with some themes that the film were going to "discuss" initially. Like Supes death's impact on the world, the hates towards different race/religion, the gap between the rich and poor etc. But instead we got.... urgh. Moving on.

The Amazons are freaking cool and powerful! All the while, I was so damn terrified of Hippolyta's safety. I was on the edge for the whole scene. Please no please no.. oh phew, but oh nooo, the Amazons.. But they did so well trying to keep the MotherBox away from Steppenwolf as long as possible.

Next one is WW saving the kids and adults in the heist scene. She's blocking the bullets!!! Blocking a machine gun's? bullets! (Is that a machine gun? I have no idea. lol). And the shots are beautiful! Especially the slow-mo.

Continue on, history lesson. The scenes were what we have seen from the trailers, with much more. The Gods are fighting alongside!!! Great!!! Zeus!! Freaking Zeus!! And Arthemis! And Ares!! Woohoo!! Though, the music/song from the trailer really suits this scene more...meh.

Next is just a split second scene. It's when Flash "arrived" at the rooftop with WW and Batman. He kind of just materialized in air. The shot is beautiful! Gordon standing next to the light looking into the sky is also beautiful. The still shot Zack shared months ago.

Following on, when they were in the krytonian ship, with Flash running to light the MotherBox. The slow-mo shot is incredible! You could see the lightning in everyone's eyes. Besides, this scene also showed us the details in Flash's suit.

Another one of my favourite is in the trailer though. The assumed Dream scene with Clark and Lois, in the corn field. I like the dialogue in this! Zack had even shared the storyboard for this! But, IT.GOT.CUT.

We have 2 post-credit scenes by the way. One is just... eh. Another one just got me hyped! And Zack shot the second one! You could feel the intensity. Aarrrggghhhh. I thought the first post-credit was gonna mean something, but it turned out just for fun. Oh well...

With such limited scenes, Cyborg is amazing!!! Obviously, many of his scenes were cut, because he doesn't feel like the "heart" of the film to me anymore, like what Zack had intended initially. The chemistry between Cyborg and Flash is spot on, what with being the youngest among the group. Flash's scenes were also cut, it's like they are totally deleting the existence of an important character, Iris. Grrrr... .......




I am so tired ranting about this. But I need to get it out.

I have watched the film 5 times, and I don't know whether I have the motivation to watch the 6th, 7th... The generic music and lame jokes made my ears bleed every time I watched the film in the cinema. I maybe exhilarating, but that's my opinion. It just hurts that the film turned like that. I am so tired after all the emotional investment I have done all this time. Obviously, some others have invested more and I don't know how they felt right now, especially those that have been investing so much on waiting for a conclusion for MOS and BVS. ...I am so sad. 

I am only watching Justice League now onwards for the characters and Zack Snyder's lovely shots. Unless something happened, and we got to see the full version of Zack's Justice League. 

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Why am I like this?

Why can't I just step out of my comfort zone?

I wouldn't get anything done with this way I am living.



Why am I like this??

I really hate my attitude on this. 

410 · 啥都没

····怎么开场？

里上次更新已经是····一个月半了吧，大概。

看吧看吧，我到底有多懒啊。

懒惰整理情绪，懒惰整理想法，懒惰窝在电脑前打字。

回来的每天早上醒来的第一件事就是下载。

对。拼命下载。虽然速度很慢但是流量是无限的！！！！

所以，只能整天开着电脑让它慢慢下。

话说，这也是我自己的习惯导致而成的吧。

看的剧都要download。线上看的话很不舒服。不行。而且下的档都要高清的。然后，看剧的数目却不是很少。算一算···日剧：4个。美剧：大概6个。

嗯。一个file最少有300MB。最都1点多GB。除了剧，我还下综艺节目，偶尔音乐节目。这个就不小了。少说也有1.3GB。。。

唉····

我到底为什么要收那么多东西啊？？！！ 现在我2TB的desktop harddisk 只剩下75GB了。。。= =

可是每次下了，看了，都不舍得删啊！！！ 那么辛苦，那么花时间下的东西，为什么要删啊？！！！ 所以完全搞不懂那些看了就删的习惯。

以后要回味怎么办？在去下？又要浪费时间下？到时候找不到档怎么办？？ 到处去求人么？？？好麻烦！！！ 

唉····我家妹妹现在有个3TB的。嗯，我觉得，明年回去我会买个4TB的回来 =w=

没办法，这里的不便宜啊····

。。。。

其实我有好多东西可以说···

但是我懒得弄照片。很懒得弄想法。。。

所以就这样 = =

不好意思了。辜负了您前来看的心意。

拜拜~

I shouldn't have

... I failed my own promised. = =

I really should have updated the blog yesterday since there's quite a few things going on in my mind and I should have better written them down. Now, after one night sleep, my mind is kinda blank. O.O 

Let me recall....

From the start of the day...

9am, BIOL271 tutorial. Tutorial, that word bring's chill down my spine. = = I don't like tutorials. Why? Because, it means a small number of people doing group discussion of a topic in a small confine room or something. I'm really weak at this. I rarely talk to strangers and discussing topics with them is a VERY HUGE STEP. Besides, maybe this is my own negative thinking, I felt... inferior. hm... I'm a foreigner. A foreigner from Asian countries. I know I shouldn't have felt that way and there's no reason for me to feel so... but that's not the case. Although I'm on the same level as them (academicly...?), I can't speak out at all. ....hm... Why so? It's like I'm really scare. Really scare. I'm the type to get really nervous in front of people. I remembered clearly during Senior 3, I got so nervous that I nearly stopped talking completely in front of the class during my BM oral exercise. = = I was twisting my hands behind my back. .... Bad memories.....

Also, I find it difficult to tell somebody some interesting episodes happened in my day. Even if I'm telling it to my sister. It's frustrating that I can't get my message or excitement across. So I was thinking, maybe I should start by telling my sister stories?  I mean, I read something first, and then tell her in my own words... That might help in my explanation to others, right???? 

Back to my tutorial. I'm the only Asian in my group. And the whole group felt like.. . "Even if I said I don't really get the essay but I could still answer the questions." ... How should I follow up to that. When I said I don't understand that means I really don't understand. ...And once again, this is my own thoughts, I'm relatively very small.... ...erm... Skip this topic. 

Since 2 years ago, how I wish I could be grouped together with other Asians. At least, maybe, I would dare to talk out cause I feel that we are on the same level...maybe. ...aih... 

Actually, this group discussion thingy for this course is new. The lecturers/course coordinators introduced this learning system this year and "used" us as the white mouse for this. You see, they wanted to see if the students learn more from the Traditional Teaching method or the group discussion method. And of course, I voted for the first method in my head. To me, learning and thinking is a personal thing. It's something that going in my head and it felt kinda...private. Maybe I don't mind sharing....and maybe I do mind...

I don't know... When discussed, it felt like ...people could roughly examined where your thinking or learning or revision is... And I really don't like that. Maybe I'm a bit too self conscious and really nervous and stressed out about what people think of me. I'm afraid of people thinking negatively of me... I rather they have no thoughts about me to negative thoughts... That's selfish, I know....

Skipped the details about the tutorial...

I had Personality lecture next. ^^ Love this lecture. It's much more interesting than Cognitive's lectures. =v= I don't know...For me, I could understand Personality lectures more than Cognitive's. Cognitive is a bit difficult. lol... I'm not hardworking enough to understand it. :p
Anyway, the lecturer came late today. Around 20 minutes late?? Students left during the first 15 minutes. lol. The others sat back and wait. I wait too~

Next is laboratory. I like this lab too ^^ This course's lab is fun actually. Maybe because it's not a core course, it's much more relax and that bit easier. =w= That's why I like it. Not much pressure at all. Maybe during the test though. XD

We looked at our pulses and heartbeats. I tried my pulse first and discovered that we needed to adjust the ranges till small levels to see changes on the chart.  = = My lecturer commented that I have no pulse. lol. I did expected that...He said I'm the type that have cold hands and legs and pulses that are hard to detect. ...hm.. .. my hands are cold... legs are cold too sometimes... Oh well, we used my lab partner's pulses in the end.

We wrapped the transducer on her middle finger and a transducer belt around her waist. Next, we do some breathing exercise. Inhale, hold ; Inhale, expel; Expel, hold....we recorded her pulses and heart rates for each of the conditions and answers some questions.

The next exercise, me and my partner switched. This time, instead of using belts to wrap around finger and waist, we used big clippers to measure pulses and heart beats...I think. er... No no no. We do ECG. Electrocardiogram. It's used to see the heart exercises and detect and heart problems.

So, it started by measuring my normal pulses and heart beats. Then I get on the cycling thing and cycled for a few minutes with high frictions. My lecturer screwed it quite tight (means higher friction and need to put on more force to cycle) and it didn't help much with only one complete pedal. Another pedal was long spoiled so I could only pedal with that tiny metal. Painful la. By the time I stopped and came down from the thing, wow... dizzy la. Did I stop breathing while cycling ? = = We quickly measured my pulses and heart beats. Wow... Huge peaks. lol. It's interesting to see some differences in the readings. ~~~ Actually it's kind of interesting looking at the instruments that telling the condition of your heart beats. Really.

So... interesting lab. ^^ Fun.

After that, I went to the library to look for my sis. By then, it was already 5:20pm... Quite late. hm...

We went straight home then cause we had a dinner date with Auntie. ^^

I drove us to an Indian Restaurant - Kinara located just opposite the Hornby Hub.

We ordered 2 curries and that came with rice. It's $15 for each curry. Don't get tricked by the photos, actually they were just 2 small pots. But you can eat up to a few bowls or rice with just 1 small pot, since the flavour is so rich....

So, that's dinner....

After that, Auntie rented a dvd from a video store nearby and we spent the rest of our evening watching that particular movie. hm....

oh ya, before I forgot, let me introduce one of  my 'housemate'.

He is totally different from my old 'housemate', Mimi the Cat. >.< This guy is soo....fluffy. It's Momo the Dog.



I think I will just end the post.... it's getting quite stuffy....and long.... with all those....words...


ciao~