430

好烦好烦好烦——————————————————

只不过是久违的聊天 囧

结果隔天的心情起伏好大！！！！ 脑子里很不安静！！！

烦死了——！啊————！！！



哈！！！

整天脑子里转啊转啊转啊。。。浪费我脑细胞！！！！

为什么要想东想西啊 囧囧囧

不值得啊——


我是不是朋友不够啊？！所以脑子里整天想的朋友就那么几位 ·····


同学···是有啦。朋友真的很少。能够好好聊天的也就那么几位。。。哈。。5根手指头算有余···

嘛，其实，说是有人聊天，结果我也没说到什么，通常啦。

感觉被留下了呢。常常。

不是说聊天内容。

就···生活的一切。

我呢，还没怎么上前呢。还在原地踏步，离身边的人越来越远了~

我的热度就那么一下下而已，很容易被其它事物影响。也可能是我感兴趣的东西比较多。什么都想要。。。

。。。。

我完全不知道我在说什么了。

429 - I forgot what I was saying...

Hello there~

I wonder why I started off posts with greetings...hmm? I think part of it to the readers and part of it to myself (whenever I read through my old posts.Yep. I do that, deal with it.)

I finished one of only 2 Final exams of my entire Undergraduate life. It was on Thursday. And trust me, the exam was kind of brutal for me. I've no idea what I was writing, I really doubt that the answers I wrote did really answered the questions. Heck, I forgot many of the materials. Urgh.

Moving on...

I continued this post like...days later. So, I kinda forgot what I was going to say days earlier.

Big news. I can't login to my FREAKING FACEBOOK ACCOUNT. HELL!

I could login my other FB account via desktop and other devices. So, there goes the theory that something is wrong with the Internet or Facebook itself.

I scrolled through the troubleshoot questions and stuffs, and realised that, maybe.. I somehow got my account disabled by the website.

Awww... what did I do? All I do in FB is rant stuffs from my daily lives and post photos of food. duh...

Stupid.

On the side not, I won an artbook!!

A How to train your dragon 2 artbook!!!

It's a lucky draw and I got the winner prize. HAHAHA!!! Although I already bought one, but I still want to keep this! It's my first prize from a lucky draw! I never thought that I could win any!!! Woohoooooo.

And all I need to do now is find someone who's staying in Mainland to keep the parcel for me. And it turned out, it was difficult to look for a friend living there. I have two but... Anyway, I hoped to hear from her soon. I really need to give an address for the book. >.<

428

I don't live to please!

I don't live for attention!

I don't live for...anyone!!! Besides my family,oh ya. You have any problem with that??!








but I craved some sort of connection sometimes. duh.




pathetic. = = 

427 - another book, yeah!

The Graveyard Book.

I finished the book some days ago!

I realized that my reading pace of the book was slow. I mean, it’s quite an “OK” pace initially, but then, it started to go downhill when I found another book… SPOOK’S.

Yup. I think I’m heading into another fandom once again. This is a whole new fandom. I know the movie is coming out next year, but trust me, that’s not what really got me into the books. Well, the movie pointed out the book for me, but I didn't pick it up yet. Later while looking for new books on dragons in the library, I saw this art cover of a girl, a really badass girl in my opinion. And well, that’s kind of cool and dark, I thought. And realised that it was from the SPOOK’s series. This got my interest. Following that, I bought 3 hardcovers from Whitcoulls for $3, meaning $1 each. CHEAP! And they were hardbacks you know! They were all SPOOK’S. I always like hardbacks, so, once I saw the genre I like and in that price, I grabbed everything up.

… I kinda side tracked there. I was supposed to be talking about The Graveyard Book.

OK. This is mine…4th…? book from Neil Gaiman. Actually, this is my first interest in Neil Gaiman’s book. But along the way, I found Coraline and started reading that first.

The Graveyard Book was about a boy who lives in the graveyard with his foster parents and guardian and other inhabitants in the graveyard. Every chapter has title, like every book has. Reading along, I realized that the book is about the Bod’s time in the graveyard. With every chapter, Bod aged. Not a day or 2 but weeks or months, or sometimes, years. By the end of the book, he’s grown up to be a young man.

I’m not going into the summary of the book as there’s no point doing that. I bet there are others who wrote wonderful summary or synopsis about it. Anyway, I like the settings and characters of the stories. I mean, come on, it’s about a boy living in a graveyard. How do you think a boy can survive in a graveyard? Also, he lived in the graveyard since he was an infant or maybe a toddler.

As you might have suspect, the ‘people’ in the graveyard raised him. He had the Owens as his foster parents and a mysterious man as his guardian. His parents raised him and his guardian took care of Bod’s needs to survive. Like bringing food and stuffs.

There are a few things I like in this book. It’s that Bod’s interactions with the graveyard inhabitants are natural! It might be that he never left the graveyard so it seems normal to him to talk to ghosts and stuffs. Besides that, he had lessons from them too! He had respective teachers to teach him about things that we normally didn’t learn in school. For example, types of people, how to Fade and stuff. By the end of the book, Bod even learned how to Dreamwalking! It’s where he walked into the other’s dream and projected his own thoughts to either terrify others or talk to them. 

I find it kind of sad at the end. As a living boy, Bod would need to leave the dead world to venture into the living world. Well, like most children books do, it teaches a child about growing up. You stepped out of your comfort zone and explore the world. The help from your family will be limited and you would need to take risks. From what I learnt from How to train your dragon books, growing up is really, a painful and bittersweet progress.

awww......... I'm still a bit ...sad about it. But, need to grow up!

426 I'm so freaking mad of myself sometime

I hate my life.

I'm grateful for everyone who participates in it. Honestly, I'm glad that you're in it, even if you don't give a damn.

I don't hate my life.

I hate how I act in it. I should have just be more ignorant of certain things sometimes and a get a life.

I should just stay focus on myself and not ogling's at other people's.

You know?? You can't have that so might as well get over it!

GET A FREAKING LIFE!

THERE'S NO USE DEPRESSING OVER SOMETHING YOU NEVER HAVE AND WILL NEVER HAVE.

BE CONTEND WITH FREAKING SELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

425 - another book, yeah.

I finished another book. Oh yeah~ This time, it's still a children book~

<Odd and the Frost Giants> by Neil Gaiman. LOL

Recently I've been collecting his books from the libraries. I still have another 3 of his books to finish~ For some reason, I'm excited about <The Graveyard Book>. But I'm gonna read it after <M is for magic>.

I'm halfway through <M is for magic>. It's a book full of short stories. Personally, I like the Troll Bridge, Don't Ask Jack, October in the Chair and The Price. That's my current progress. I like how the stories were told. I'm terrible at describing things, so I wouldnt say much about the stories.

Anyway, life is good, I think, so far. But I'm coming down with a small fever, I suspect. I feel pain all over my body, my ears are really sensitive and painful sometimes, my fingers and legs are cold. Plus, I can't breath properly. aih... my throat hurts few days ago...

Sick.

All I can do now is that I better get better. There's final exam of course coming this Wednesday and I have a revised report due that Friday and another 2 reports due the following week. So, yeah, kind of busy.

This is 300 level, what did you expect???

Oh ya, I havent put in form to rent the graduation gown. I saw the form, and prices, and damn. IT'S SO EXPENSIVE!!!! AND WE PAYING FOR 2! Why does it cost so much?! It's just a gown!! I bet tons of people rent it every year!!! Why do you still need to charge that much?! I know it's for some charity and bla, but....... sheeshhhhh!!! It's not like I'm buying it or anything! Hell! I have never bought a shirt or gown that expensive, period.


...................... Spring is coming! The trees have started to bloom. It's quite a beauty in school. 

424 - Coraline .....

< CORALINE> - Neil Gaiman

I finished another book this year! Yeah!

Once again, the book’s main audience target is children, so, another children book added to my read books. Haha. 

I saw the movie I think, part of it. I remembered the ending scenes....

Coraline, the book, obviously, is about a girl named Coraline. The book started where Coraline and her family had just moved into this new old house. The whole house was not theirs, but just a floor. I think that was what the description meant, an apartment, something like that. She had some strange neighbours: a couple of old weighed ladies who used to be stars on stages staying with their dogs, living below them; and an old man with his instrument-playing mouse living upstairs.

From what I read about Coraline in the book, he was kind of a quiet girl. She played by her own, she spent her time exploring, and her parents did not bother about her and seem to be constantly busy. Between the lines, we could understand that her parents did not give her what she wanted and tend to give her things that she did not want. Her father cooked recipe food that Coraline dislike, her mother bought clothes that Coraline thought was boring. Besides that, not many interactions could be seen between Coraline and her parents. In some scenes, there might be some hint that her mother seemed cold towards Coraline. Her father though, the first impression I got was that Coraline constantly seeing her father’s back.

The apartment was old. They had this drawing room where they kept grandmother’s old furniture. In that room, there was a door that was kept locked at all times. Coraline was curious as to where the door would lead to. She asked her mother about it. Her mother took out a old black key and swung the door open. Instead of a room or hallway, there was a brick wall. Her mother explained that the brick wall was constructed to separate their current apartment from the next, something like that.

One day, she was bored. Curiosity got the better of her. Coraline retrieved the key from the shelf in the kitchen and opened the strange door. This time though, the door swung open and revealed a dark hallway. Again, with curiosity, she walked into the dark hallway and realized that she was walking on something similar to the carpet in the drawing room. Not only that, the wallpaper was similar too. And then, she was there. She was confused as the room she arrived in was very similar to her one in her home. And then, she heard someone calling for her that sounded like her mother. She reached for the sound source. There she found a woman that looked like her mother, but instead of eyes with pupils, the woman had black buttons as eyes.

Button eyes! Wow. That’s really… eerie. The more you thought about it, the scarier it became. Maybe because I am thinking about it in reality context. …..No….I don’t want to venture into that.  

After meeting her other mother, Coraline went around and met other residents in this strange world. She met the old ladies downstairs, but here, there were not old and heavy weigh, but young and slim with button eyes. Here, the dogs talked. Next, she met with the old man living upstairs of her apartment. Here, Coraline realized that the mouse played the instruments. Back into the other house that was not her real house, her father cooked non-recipe food. Coraline was delighted and ate everything. She went into her other room and found that everything in the room was different from her own real room. Weird toys and Halloween-type clothes. Her other mother and other father wanted her to stay with them. She left the house and went back to her real house.

Sometimes later, her parents disappeared. She had no choice but to go through the hallway and back to the other house to look for her missing mother.

Now, that was brave. I did not really say anything about her feelings, but she was kind of scare during her previous visit. She was terrified of her other mother.

To retrieve her parents from the other mother and go back to her real home, she challenged her other mother. She made a deal to look for the missing children’s and her parents’ souls. With the help of the stone and occasionally, the strange talking cat, she managed to find all objects that contained the missing souls. Her other mother was not happy about her success. But Coraline managed to find her parents in the end and hurried back to her real home before the strangely lively dark hallway swallowed them up. Coraline locked the door and kept the key close to her. This is not the end though, there was something scattering around at night in the hallway.  With some advice, she realized what it was. She came with a plan to trap that thing and stopped it from disturbing her further on.

Her plan was brilliant! I mean, for her age.  Also, that thing that scattered around, that was creepy. The way the author described the hand with the bone and stuff.  Another thing that really crept me out was the scene where Coraline met the thing that used to be her other father. Oh man!!!! That was creepy and scary!! I don’t know!!! I don’t watch scary movies so… argh… This stuff easily creeps me out.  

Anyway, I enjoyed the book. But it took me roughly a month to finish = = I got side track easily. I didn't read other books though. Just that I stop reading and do other things. I like how the book built up the eeriness of the slowly, but steadily.

I have these favourite quotes in the book:

‘It wasn't brave because he wasn't scared: it was the only thing he could do. But going back again to get his glass, when he knew the wasps were there, when he was really scared. That was brave.’ 

‘…when you’re scared but you still do it anyway, that’s brave.’

I borrowed the book from the public library. I went to look for hardcover copies in the bookshops, but no, they don't have any. Most books are paperback, I want hardback.

423 - end of August

Hello there, this is the last day of the month, 31st of August. Which means, Happy Merdeka Day to Malaysia!!!

Get another day off because Merdeka day falls on Sunday. woohooo...

Not for me though, it's still the same. I'm on my term break anyway, 2 weeks. The 2nd week of the break starts tomorrow.

So ya... I'm going to finish my Psyc essay next week. Hopefully. It's due Monday, 8th of September. Also, I need peer-reviewed a reviewed article due that Thursday... and! I have one final exam on the following Friday, I think. A 3 hours test. hahahahahahaha...

I'm totally pushing everything to next week. XDDD And I HIGHLY DOUBT that I could finish everything. I would be sooooo happy that I could even finish the Psyc essay.

This Psyc essay.. I need to write a ..erm... an essay about one out of three topics. I haven't make my mind yet what to choose and I'm not sure about the details yet. I mean, the "requirements" of the essay, eg. word count, references, font etc.

I should be worried sick now, but NO.... I'm just starting to feel a littttle bit panic. Hahahaha. My response to the situation is so slow.

So... August is ending.

Jun-kun's birthday was yesterday! 
Happy 31st!!!! Please take care and be healthy in your 30s!!!

Next... Oh ya, New Zealand stopped showing How to train your dragon 2 (HTTYD2) this Wednesday. I mean, at least it's in my city here. I don't know about other parts of the country, but I think it's the same.

So, I know some of you guys realized that I've watched the movie... quite a few times, for the first few weeks. Later on, I stopped updating whether I've watched it still. So, for over 2 months, I broke my own record ( 3 times for 1 movie in the cinema). This time, my record is a double digit. I'm not going to say more. No one is really interested in it anyway. If you really are, just text me, friend.

Guys, did anyone go to the cinema for the movie?? Anyone?

If not, you really missed out the treat!!!!! I can't use any words to describe it. I think I've ranted enough in the previous post about the movie, so I'm not going to repeat that in this post.

Besides that, I watched Guardians of the Galaxy and Doctor Who: Deep Breath too!! Among my HTTYD2 trips. I watched this.. movie and drama between the time slots that were-not-airing-HTTYD2-but-I-was-free-at-the-moment time.

Guardians of the Galaxy was funny. I didn't know what ...vibe the movie would give out until the then Star-Prince started to put on his headphones and hit play on the player. LOL... The funny level went up when the movie title appeared. For some reasons, that was funny!!! Other then that, I've not much to comment on. Groot and Rocket were nice!! I like the scene where Groot brighten the space with small...firefly thingy. ^^ That was beautiful.

Next, Doctor Who: Deep Breath (DW). Since it only aired in one time slot for only one time, it was shown in the largest room in the cinema. And well, there were lots and lots of people. And I felt so comfortable sitting among adults. LOL. Because I've been watching HTTYD2 for so many times, all those times, kids were the majority. So, it's kinda noisy. In DW, it was quiet. With some occasional gasps and stuffs. Looking around, some were indeed excited when the theme song started playing. HAHAHA. I was so thrilled when the familiar-but-not-so-familiar theme song and scene played on the wide screen. Hahaha........... I felt... a bit proud actually. From the production in 2005 till today, where they can aired their first episode of the DRAMA SERIES in theaters WORLDWIDE (excluding some countries... I think), I felt so happy for them. OMG... I'm actually watching DW in the cinema! <- That was my mental thought.

And ya, 12th looked sooo cool!!! A bit cold and un-predictable actions as what I've expected, since watching 11th's behaviours and stuffs in the 6th series. Hmmmm. Overall, that was really nice! The cinematography was beautiful. I kept thinking back to the previous series and making comparisons XDDD I really shouldn't do that!!!!

Although it was suppose to be a one time thing, the cinema aired it again for another few slots on Friday and Saturday, "back by popular demand!" <—— that's what the poster in the cinema said.

422 AWESOME JULY

Hey there~ Once again I can't keep up with my own words. Woohoooo...

My second post of the month! On the last day of the month!

Anyway, I did try to write something up you know. Like the weather, small gathering, dinner and stuffs. But I just cannot write anything, at all.

You know, this is kinda like my first time writing... actual sentences that convey ...meanings since last semester??

I have not start on my essay, I have not start on my lab reports and I have not start collecting papers for my research proposal. Ya.. another research proposal. Well, research proposal is alright, as long as I "produced" it on time. See, that's the problem, I never do anything according to plan! I left everything to the last minute and I literally hate myself about that. I'm torturing myself at the last minute!!!

Anyway, I enjoyed July very much.

Well, you know.... How to train your dragon 2 came out in New Zealand cinemas in 3rd of July. So... yeah.

IT WAS WONDERFULLLLLLLL. 
THE SCENERY BREATHTAKING.
THE SOUNDTRACK WAS OMGGGGGGGGGG.
I LOVEEEE THE CHARACTERS since the first one.
TOOTHLESS IS SOOOO CUTE AND COOL AND DAMN POWERFUL.
HICCUP HAD GROWN UP! BUT STILL THE SAME HICCUP!
I REALLY LOVE THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN HICCUP AND TOOTHLESS.
EVERY CHARACTERS' EXPRESSIONS ARE BEAUTIFULLY CREATED!!! EVERYTHING LOOKS KINDA REAL. FROM COLOURS TO EVERYTHING.
AND! THE WORLD CREATED IS VERY VERY CONVINCING. AND YOU MIGHT AS WELL BELIEVE IT REALLY DID EXIST!

LAST THING, I REALLY, REALLY, REALLLLLLY APPRECIATE ALL THE HARDWORK THE STAFFS PUT INTO THE MOVIE.

THANK YOU DREAMWORKS!


I went to the cinemas 16 times this month for HTTYD2 and I'm so damn proud of doing that, supporting my favourite movie.

Let me tell you something, it's really, really, not a "kids" movie. Just watch it for a few minutes and you would get what I mean. If you still don't get it, watch the whole movie! You've got nothing to lose!

Yup. That sums up my July, with some other things like lectures, labs etc.

421

I rarely talk because I don't think anything I talk about is interesting.

I rarely talk because the conversations mostly ended with silence. I can't really hold long conversation. I don't really know how to elaborate my conversations.

I rarely share my interest because the responds I received kind of hurt me on many levels and I am better off not sharing in the first place.

I rarely initiate conversations because, as I said before, the topics I have in mind rarely, and I really mean RARELY, appeal to anyone.

So, I revert to giving short comments or not talking at all.

It's not that I don't want to talk. I know that I'm not confident and I know that I shouldn't be, but, annoying someone while talking out of confidence is not what I wanted.

I prefer people having neutral opinions on me than leaning on the disliking me. I prefer people having no thoughts on me than having negative thoughts...

Yup. I'm paranoia. Yup. I don't like people disliking me. And yup, I'm not brave to speak out.

I just wanted to rant out...

Sometimes I really hate myself... disappointed in myself...

I pushed all of these to a side and indulged in temporary happiness. And when the positive thoughts are gone, all those negative ones come back in full force.

So pathetic...



I so wanted to shout sometimes.... scream...



I'm fine... not that anyone is asking.

420

Well, I had my first exam on Wednesday and it was fine. Really.

I wrote 10 pages, not full; but most of my coursemates had written all 16 pages of their answer booklet.

What????????

How did they do that??

Oh ya. Early preparations. 

Got it. I didn't do that. I crammed everything at the last minute. I was practically happy that I could even reached 10 pages. Woohoo~

And then, I free for roughly a week!

My second and last exam is on next Friday.

I am taking this exam with me sis. Yup. We took the same course. So, I don't want to spite her by studying for this course BECAUSE, she had exams 3 days in a row this week. Till Saturday.

Really, I don't want to spite her. And also, I am lazy. 

Reasons reasons reasons. There's always reasons to ditch studying.

ok... so... how's life??? 

Not much happened, as usual. No interesting stories, just some old routine that I somehow enjoy repeating everyday. I barely talk to someone else intentionally. I mean, I don't go and find friends to talk. You get what I mean? You see, I don't think anything I talk about is interesting at all and can hold anyone's attention span for more than a minute. So, keeping quiet might be the best way to avoid the 'cold treatment'. 

That said, I still prefer listening to others' conversations. In Uni, the things different from high school, from my point of view, are that drinking and dancing (sort of) are normal. I mean, back in Kuching, the most I would go was eating or drinking tea with friends passed midnight. And then no more. Comparing my life then to my uni friends' lives, I sounded so... ha! I don't know. Different. Uni friends are crazy, sometimes. ... 

I'm still happy to meet them, though a bit crazy sometimes. Did I mention? All of my friends are not from around here. Well, I mean their ethnicity. I didn't make any Kiwi friends. How sad. 

I can't even maintain my relationships with my old friends I could I even make new friends? 

419 ohmygawd

Just heard some overwhelming things from my friend.

and all I was thinking during that time was screaming "OH MY GAWD!" in my head.

and then I went on and rant out "ohmygawd" throughout the conversation. 

I don't know what my reaction is, in person, as the conversation was in text messages. 

... I wonder what my real live reaction would be like...

overwhelming things. ya. cool. 

I'm not sharing and yes, I'm that damn selfish. 

So, exam week starts tomorrow, and the duration is 2 weeks. 

I have 2 exams during this duration, as I had one before the study break. One in each week. 

The first one is on this coming Wednesday, at 1430 and last for 3 hours. Psychology paper. Essay questions. Short essay questions. Well, this is a rather tough course. They did give us the questionsssss before the exams, but, it's quite a lot to prepare anyway. AND! I'm sooooooo lazy and stubborn to study. The lectures are not that easy to understand, to me. I'm not talking about other people. 

Another one would be Biology paper. The exam questions would be one essay out of 2 questions and all others would be short answer questions. That might be easier to answer but many materials to learn.

I really hope I would be NOT THAT STUBBORN AND GET REALLY FOCUS ON MY STUDIES! 

After talking to me friend, I have SOOO many negative feelings towards myself. I hope I wouldn't develop any loathing feelings towards myself someday....

OH GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

I'm still overwhelmed!!!

418

For some reasons, I'm feeling a bit thrilled for the whole day!

Well, maybe it's because I just finished my test last night!!!!!!!! YEAHHHHH.

I don't think I did REALLY well in it, but, it's over. It's in the past. I can't do anything about it. Besides, I would be getting the results tomorrow or on Friday. Fast, isn't it... Speed marking by my lecturer. :D Let me tell you, though my class is not a big one, still, one person marking for the whole class in just.. few days, it's still pushing. She sounded so excited to be leaving soon, hahaha!!

She would be out be out of reach for the next 3 weeks. ^^ We will be having another lecturer for the time being, don't worry.

I didn't really get what she was saying about her own ..situations but I think she didn't really sleep much since last night. And had many caffeine running in her systems.

Her lecture was kind of fun today, the topic. I mean, all the topics were interesting, but today seems a bit different...lol.. I don't really know how to put it. Maybe it's the way she talked about it. Too much caffeine and stuff...... XDDDD

So, I had only 2 lectures today. Awesome.

After yesterday's cramming 4 lecture materials into my head, today felt like a small holiday to me. All smiles despite I can't understand most of the things my lecturer was talking about in Psyc. ... technical stuffs...

Had lunch at around 2 something and spending the the next few hours holding up in the public library.

ONLINE. 

What else, duh.

My life source is internet.

So what.



Another good news is that, my cd is finally arriving~!

Been waiting for it since.. when.. end of April. I was anxious and worried whether the package had went missing while sailing to NZ...

Luckily it didn't.

It's a limited edition CD single.

I wouldn't want to miss that....



It's Thursday tomorrow~~~ <X-Men: Days of Future Past> starts showing in Cinemas in NZ~~~ yeahhhhhh...

417

Hello~~~~~~~~

Mid-term break is over and second term of the first half year of 2014 has started~
Aren't you excited?! !!!!!

NOPE.

It was a 3 weeks term break. How awesome it was!!! During that time, I left my assignment till the last half week and that was when I realized I have a mid-term test on Monday, the first day of second term.

OH HELL…. Everything breaks loose.

It was kind of disaster. Talking about my attitude actually. You see, I’m LAZY.. V-E-R-Y LAZY. So, when I found out that I have a test coming out, you still put everything to the last minute!! I didn't even think of finishing my assignment as soon as possible! I mean, I've been wanting to finish it off since the second week, and yet, there I was, still wandering around without even open a Word document to write something. NOPE. I am just too lazy.

Anyway, I finished my assignment officially on Sunday, around 1pm. So, you think I would go straight into study? Hell ya I did!!! I pulled out my lecture notes and looked at the questions and started patching the answers from the readings. But, my motivations and enthusiasm kinda … slipping away with every minute of my concentration. At the end I kinda just aimlessly surfing the web. HAHAHAHA!

Browsing the web, looking at food pictures in tumblr…. Till the library closed at 4pm. HA!! That’s when I got kinda frustrated with myself. We didn’t head home, we went to the school library. There, I did do my study…really now. I don’t have much time to study next day before my test. I have lecture and lab back to back till 6pm, and 6pm was the start of my test time, till 8pm. Well, lab normally don’t end that late, so.. there’s like roughly an hour for me to try and cramp everything I can into my mind. Well, that outcome wasn’t pretty.  

I got two of the well-learned short essay questions in the test, good for me. And I practically tried to rack my brain to put everything I remember into my writing. But well~ I’m not good at that. I ended up forgetting parts of it. Later when I told my sis about it, she said….and I forgot what she said. I was thinking about that just seconds ago! Heck! Now I don’t remember things that not far away ago so you just imagine what my test answer looked like. = = And for the MCQ (multiple choice questions, yup.. I still get that sometimes. Especially Psych’s test.), I totally… freaked out on those. To be honest, I didn’t quite any part of the materials for MCQ. I kinda focused on the short essay questions. You see, I was kind of confident with that, with just 3 questions, you could get 45%!!!! Well.. we know how that turn out now.

So… nothing more to comment on this anymore.

We had BK’s burgers and McD’s nugget for dinner that night! Hehehehehehehe~~~ I know I was kind of depressing then, but me sis said there’s nothing you could do about that and let’s just celebrate that you’ve just got something done. Ya. I’ll live with that.

It’s Wednesday. My sis turn to have her test from 6-8pm. Now I’m wondering what we are going to have for dinner……Takeaway definitely. I wouldn’t want to cook when I get home at this hour. It’s just a waste of time. And I wouldn’t be able to eat till maybe later than 9pm. And really, I have ran out of idea what to cook… I really hate that there’s always someone asking what am I eating every night. That’s makes me wanna slap my food on that said person’s face. I would tell if I want to, but asking as if it’s a routine every day? That’s really frustrating! And if I have the same food I mean, within a week, the word “again” would be heard.

Oh MAN!!!!!! SHUT UP!!!! GO AWAY!!!!!!!

IT’S SO STRESSFUL SOMETIMES TO EVEN THINK OF DINNER!! You see, after washing my hair, I would DEFINITELY NOT COOK. I just had my hair wash, why would get it oily so fast?! It would get oily in just 2 days maybe and I would cook by then. Next, I am very particular with the ingredients used. Say, I want to cook Green Curry. If there’s no potatoes, there’s a VERY HIGH CHANCE that I’m not going to cook that; if I want to cook black sauce pork or beef, no preserved mushroom, not cooking. … My sis got frustrated with me sometimes, saying that I’m soooo difficult. Ya. I am. So? I’m not making anyone miserable, just meself and her. No big deal. Besides, I’m not an adventurer.

I said this many times, I don’t eat things that I have no idea what it is. For example, when I try something new, I REALLY WANT TO know what it is made of, what are the ingredients and stuffs. And if I don’t like it, I AM NOT EATING. If I do eat it eventually, it’s because I’m ….. “giving you face”. Not that I like it. Please appreciate my trying effort. Don’t continue on ranting that I’m “lousy” or I’m not “adventurous”…..Just don’t. I have heard of that for maaaaannny years. You have no idea. Unless I said so, not everything tastes nice to me if I did indeed eat whatever is offered. Please DON’T ASSUME. I don’t try things that I have no idea what its basic taste is. It might end up revolting to me and I really hate that experience. I have tons of things that would make me throw up, so no, thank you. I don’t want to add another into the list.  

Hmmm… and then I realised… I closing myself off more and more… I rarely let me mask off in front of others…. Beside my family and close friends…I think. Sometimes, not even my family know what I’m thinking. Hahaha….. I don’t share…. That’s why.

Awww… it’s still another hour to go before sis finished her test……

What to eat tonight????????????????!!!!!

Oh ya… my birthday greetings last month. I had a friend that greeted me on time! (at their time zone of course ~) Thank you~!!!

And also to the wishes via text messages! Overseas and locals! I really appreciate it!!!

Another thing I want to write down in this entry. I finished the second Hiccup book!!!! Yippee!!!!!!!! I spent the whole day, roughly, to finish it! HAHAHA. You see, I have only 2 lectures today. XD

About the book, once again, I really think that it’s not a very happy story. But still, it’s not tragedy…uptill now. I’m glad of the little successes when the story progress. I mean, I like it when Hiccup came out of dangerous situations successfully, although no one seems to think twice how he did that. But I really like that part of him. His sarcastic and quick thinker!! Awwww and Toothless is just…. Cute in his own ways. Maybe it’s just reading too much into the lines, but I think that Hiccup and Toothless relationship is getting smoother. I mean, Toothless is still lazy and stubborn, but he still get things done when Hiccup ask him too, with promises of rewards of course. HAHA. I like that he doesn’t abandon Hiccup when they encounter dangers. There’s a scene where the other dragons shouted “Desert” when they saw some bigger, deadlier dragons running towards them. Then went and wanted to abandon their masters…

Well, the second book was nice too!! Really enjoyed it! :D It’s a nice past time~~~~~~~ Sometimes when I read about the stupidity of the Hooligan Tribe, I really want to just pluck them out and bang their heads together. Really… they don’t think….

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the downside of leaving on the country which is on the 'most east' side of the world is that,

no one would be greeting you first before your own calendar do so. ..


and by the time people start greeting you, it would mostly due to calendar reminders or just following other people's greeting footsteps.

Actually, this is kinda disappointing.



sorry, I'm a tad bit emotional right now.

No, scratch that. I'm VERY EMOTIONAL right now.


It's 0:19 now, the next day... me here. So, ... that's the reason why.

415 two books in a row

I finally finished my first book of the year!!!!

Surpirsing?

Hell Yeah!!!!!!

Surprising to me too.

Another surprising thing is that, the book was a children book!

Hahaha...

But it's totally not a childish book. Nope. It's a kid's book I know but it's reallllly entertaining. I quickly got absorbed once I started a few pages of the book and the interest kept on till the last page of the book!!

That's kind of rare.

You see, I read books. Lots of them. Sure. But, I tend to leave them halfway. I seem to have lots of unfinished books laying around, with bookmarks poking out.

I'm so.... ... "unfaithful" to the books.  = =

Anyway, finished the book!

How to train your dragon - How to twist a dragon's tale by Hiccup Horrendous Haddock III  written by Cressida Cowell.

Yeah! I got interest in the book after I rewatch the movie. I didn't realize it was that good. The animations etc. I know it's not very age appropriate, but hey, I can read anything I want! I would just ignore the occasional weird looks people gave me when I browse at the kids' sections.

It's like Rise of the Guardians all over again!! I didn't read that book. But HTTYD peaked my interest. So, I went to the public library and look for it and I found this book.

This book is the 5th in the series. I think it's still ongoing? Anyway, I don't bother much about the chronological about it and just started reading.

I LOVED the pace of the story telling. It's not dragging and straight to the point! That really push the story towards a comfortable pace. I know this doesn't sound right, but since this is a children's book, it doesn't really need you to crack your brain or stuff to really get a gist. It's not that the book is easy or anything, it's really good! Excuse me for the continuous praising!

Hm... I don't like writing a review or book report of the book. Hehehe... One thing I want to say about the book is that, it may seems like a children book but towards the end of it, I felt that... the author wrote some really awesome stuffs. Although sometimes I find the viking language a bit weird but the author really wrote some very awesome characters. Take Hiccup Horrendous Haddock III for example, the protagonist of the series. He's portrayed as a small size boy and is acting a bit weird from what was expected from a viking. He's different to put it simple. The kids around him seemed not to like him and treated him ...well, kind of isolate him sometimes. That's normal in most books, what with the protagonist being different from others etc and then some adventures changed them or showed their values and stuffs. Well, what I admired about this character is the way the author wrote him. It may not seem obvious but once you get to think about it, Hiccup is really INTELLIGENT. I got that idea when I rewatched HTTYD. He can made things. And he used maps!!! Drew some maybe, for himself. He made artificial tail to let Toothless fly~ with the other stuffs to allow him to fly Toothless smoothly. Great stuffs

That's why I went and asked Boss to get it for me.............. I want the movie in HD. XDDD


okkkkkkkk... I think I said too much from what I've planned.

The next book I finished this year is paranormal investigation genre. Mature fiction. Totally different from the previous book.

Where Angels Fear to Tread written by Thomas E. Sniegoski.

It's the 3rd book in the series.

I like the angel side of the protagonist. But the human side repressing it down is great. I like the battling part of the story where an ancient God emerged after sucking power out from the child and had golden scaled body and horns. I didn't read about the size of the God or maybe I missed it but I imagined it to be quite huge. But maybe it's just normal human size, who knows. When the angel surfaced fully, I bet it's quite an AWESOME scene. Golden wings and such . Not going to say much about the book~

So now, I'm going for the first book of both series.

wish me luck in finishing them~

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敲字敲字敲字

没什么主题所以写不出半个字 哈

那要怎么办呢

从叙述心情着手

嘛 就那样的把心情分享出去么

也对 不分享的话 就真的没什么东西好写了

写东西就是把想法分享出去吧

写出来的东西能左右别人读后对自身的看法

那样写 别人那样觉得 这样写 别人就有此想法

所以 把文笔文采练好也未必没什么其他意义

至少 能够通过自个儿写的东西影响左右其他人

某种意义上达到控制他人的权利

嘛 这样想有点强词夺理吧

那 至少能够控制他人对自身的看法吧

没人说写下的东西要真实啊

也可以借鉴别人的经历之类的来写写

可以写故事 童话 喜剧 诗词 没人说不可

里面写的东西 夸张的话 也没人会真的相信曾经发生

就算真的发生 让其他人对其存疑惑也未必不好啊

模棱两可 呵 没人真的了解你呢

说起来可能自私了点 不过这样也是变相在保护自己不是

难道不是吗

我可不知道了 别人对你的了解就维持在水平面上

不是很深入的了解 说不认识你也太失礼

没人能把你伤的很深 也没人能变相的出卖你

可能对方觉得已经把你伤的很深 但是却只是水面上的一波纹理

可能对方只是无意间的说出你的心里话 但是却已经触摸到心底的底线

变相的出卖 也不一定指什么大事情

心里的底线一经触摸 是很难完璧归赵的

这可能是极端人的想法 宽宏大量的人可能觉得没什么

这样的想法保持下去 嘿 深交的朋友没几个 也接近无的状态吧

怕被伤害 对谁都半信半疑 和人保持距离

完全不分享 自私的收起来 自个儿消化

所以才会有点孤单

不 并不是一点 是很

所以啊 就那么几个深交的话 会抓牢不放

甚至导致对方厌烦的可能

这样想着 想说对方不会被自己烦么 对方不会嫌弃自己么 对方有自己那般重视这段深交么

还是说 认为的深交只是单方面 对于对方是可有可无的存在

这样的想法渐渐的堆积 到达一定程度 会发生什么事情 会变成怎样呢

最初 应该是很生自个儿的气 为什么要这样想 为什么要这样的放不开

对方真的那么重要么 不过是一个人啊 深交 朋友 之类的 慢慢找啊

自己为什么要把自身的地位 嗯 放到如此的底呢 委屈不

然后就会倒回来想 为什么深交就那么几位

问题又跑回原题了

为什么不和他人分享 这样能有好多朋友喲 不是水平面上的朋友

是那种能够持续变成深交的哟

不是吗