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Hello~~~~~~~~

Mid-term break is over and second term of the first half year of 2014 has started~
Aren't you excited?! !!!!!

NOPE.

It was a 3 weeks term break. How awesome it was!!! During that time, I left my assignment till the last half week and that was when I realized I have a mid-term test on Monday, the first day of second term.

OH HELL…. Everything breaks loose.

It was kind of disaster. Talking about my attitude actually. You see, I’m LAZY.. V-E-R-Y LAZY. So, when I found out that I have a test coming out, you still put everything to the last minute!! I didn't even think of finishing my assignment as soon as possible! I mean, I've been wanting to finish it off since the second week, and yet, there I was, still wandering around without even open a Word document to write something. NOPE. I am just too lazy.

Anyway, I finished my assignment officially on Sunday, around 1pm. So, you think I would go straight into study? Hell ya I did!!! I pulled out my lecture notes and looked at the questions and started patching the answers from the readings. But, my motivations and enthusiasm kinda … slipping away with every minute of my concentration. At the end I kinda just aimlessly surfing the web. HAHAHAHA!

Browsing the web, looking at food pictures in tumblr…. Till the library closed at 4pm. HA!! That’s when I got kinda frustrated with myself. We didn’t head home, we went to the school library. There, I did do my study…really now. I don’t have much time to study next day before my test. I have lecture and lab back to back till 6pm, and 6pm was the start of my test time, till 8pm. Well, lab normally don’t end that late, so.. there’s like roughly an hour for me to try and cramp everything I can into my mind. Well, that outcome wasn’t pretty.  

I got two of the well-learned short essay questions in the test, good for me. And I practically tried to rack my brain to put everything I remember into my writing. But well~ I’m not good at that. I ended up forgetting parts of it. Later when I told my sis about it, she said….and I forgot what she said. I was thinking about that just seconds ago! Heck! Now I don’t remember things that not far away ago so you just imagine what my test answer looked like. = = And for the MCQ (multiple choice questions, yup.. I still get that sometimes. Especially Psych’s test.), I totally… freaked out on those. To be honest, I didn’t quite any part of the materials for MCQ. I kinda focused on the short essay questions. You see, I was kind of confident with that, with just 3 questions, you could get 45%!!!! Well.. we know how that turn out now.

So… nothing more to comment on this anymore.

We had BK’s burgers and McD’s nugget for dinner that night! Hehehehehehehe~~~ I know I was kind of depressing then, but me sis said there’s nothing you could do about that and let’s just celebrate that you’ve just got something done. Ya. I’ll live with that.

It’s Wednesday. My sis turn to have her test from 6-8pm. Now I’m wondering what we are going to have for dinner……Takeaway definitely. I wouldn’t want to cook when I get home at this hour. It’s just a waste of time. And I wouldn’t be able to eat till maybe later than 9pm. And really, I have ran out of idea what to cook… I really hate that there’s always someone asking what am I eating every night. That’s makes me wanna slap my food on that said person’s face. I would tell if I want to, but asking as if it’s a routine every day? That’s really frustrating! And if I have the same food I mean, within a week, the word “again” would be heard.

Oh MAN!!!!!! SHUT UP!!!! GO AWAY!!!!!!!

IT’S SO STRESSFUL SOMETIMES TO EVEN THINK OF DINNER!! You see, after washing my hair, I would DEFINITELY NOT COOK. I just had my hair wash, why would get it oily so fast?! It would get oily in just 2 days maybe and I would cook by then. Next, I am very particular with the ingredients used. Say, I want to cook Green Curry. If there’s no potatoes, there’s a VERY HIGH CHANCE that I’m not going to cook that; if I want to cook black sauce pork or beef, no preserved mushroom, not cooking. … My sis got frustrated with me sometimes, saying that I’m soooo difficult. Ya. I am. So? I’m not making anyone miserable, just meself and her. No big deal. Besides, I’m not an adventurer.

I said this many times, I don’t eat things that I have no idea what it is. For example, when I try something new, I REALLY WANT TO know what it is made of, what are the ingredients and stuffs. And if I don’t like it, I AM NOT EATING. If I do eat it eventually, it’s because I’m ….. “giving you face”. Not that I like it. Please appreciate my trying effort. Don’t continue on ranting that I’m “lousy” or I’m not “adventurous”…..Just don’t. I have heard of that for maaaaannny years. You have no idea. Unless I said so, not everything tastes nice to me if I did indeed eat whatever is offered. Please DON’T ASSUME. I don’t try things that I have no idea what its basic taste is. It might end up revolting to me and I really hate that experience. I have tons of things that would make me throw up, so no, thank you. I don’t want to add another into the list.  

Hmmm… and then I realised… I closing myself off more and more… I rarely let me mask off in front of others…. Beside my family and close friends…I think. Sometimes, not even my family know what I’m thinking. Hahaha….. I don’t share…. That’s why.

Awww… it’s still another hour to go before sis finished her test……

What to eat tonight????????????????!!!!!

Oh ya… my birthday greetings last month. I had a friend that greeted me on time! (at their time zone of course ~) Thank you~!!!

And also to the wishes via text messages! Overseas and locals! I really appreciate it!!!

Another thing I want to write down in this entry. I finished the second Hiccup book!!!! Yippee!!!!!!!! I spent the whole day, roughly, to finish it! HAHAHA. You see, I have only 2 lectures today. XD

About the book, once again, I really think that it’s not a very happy story. But still, it’s not tragedy…uptill now. I’m glad of the little successes when the story progress. I mean, I like it when Hiccup came out of dangerous situations successfully, although no one seems to think twice how he did that. But I really like that part of him. His sarcastic and quick thinker!! Awwww and Toothless is just…. Cute in his own ways. Maybe it’s just reading too much into the lines, but I think that Hiccup and Toothless relationship is getting smoother. I mean, Toothless is still lazy and stubborn, but he still get things done when Hiccup ask him too, with promises of rewards of course. HAHA. I like that he doesn’t abandon Hiccup when they encounter dangers. There’s a scene where the other dragons shouted “Desert” when they saw some bigger, deadlier dragons running towards them. Then went and wanted to abandon their masters…

Well, the second book was nice too!! Really enjoyed it! :D It’s a nice past time~~~~~~~ Sometimes when I read about the stupidity of the Hooligan Tribe, I really want to just pluck them out and bang their heads together. Really… they don’t think….

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Lecture started early today, at 9am in the cold windy morning. And then, I’m free for the whole day. How awesome is that!  = =

What a waste of my time.

Well, it’s because some of my classes and labs have not officially started yet. That’s why I have sooooo many free slots. One lab starts at the next following week on Tuesday. So, on Tuesday, I would have 3 academic hours…..>_> That doesn’t change much isn’t it. Hmm… Wait till the next term. There’s another course that only runs on the 2^nd term. Hope that ‘enrich’ my first semester timetable…..

Some side facts…. 现在正在听着《七里香》这专。噢噢噢~ 果然好喜欢他那时期的曲调歌词啊~~>.< 那样的听着，会想起中学时期的片段呢。。。。初中的时候。嘛，我不知道时代对不对，我确实是哪个时候才意识到我在听谁的歌。因为··那时候mp3机开始流行，我爸不知道在那给我买个中国货的mp3 player. 然后啊，下载技术没现在那么好，所以乱找一把，然后就都是他的歌和英文歌了。日文歌的话，就动画的主题曲之类的。那时我不怎么看歌词，这听歌。现在看歌词边听，感受加倍~ 这专里，大致上都喜欢，除了几首不那么听之外···

OK, back to daily life.

So, I’m taking 6 courses this year. One of them is a whole year course. That’s a 30 points course. I have another 30 points course which only runs 1 semester. Ooooo… So, that course is a bit heavier compare to other 15 points courses. More workload.

I’m taking 4 bio courses and 2 psyc papers. …..

WHY IS IT SO DAMN COLD IN MARCH?!!! IT’S SUPPOSE TO BE AUTUMN! NOT WINTER!! Crazy weather. It shouldn’t be this cold in the beginning of March. STUPIAK WEATHER.

Hmmm…. Oh ya. Father and mother went back last week, on Saturday morning. To Kuching via Sydney to Singapore, then Singapore to KL and then finally Kuching. … MAS is not flying Singapore to Kuching at that time. Why’s that???????? I highly doubted that there’s no one flying that flight. Duh…..

With their departure, our life are back to normal. School and occasional stock takings. Since we are on that topic, we went stock taking last night. XD It’s a retail shop in a mall. What was the name….. “Bed Bath & Table” ?  Something like that. Is quite a small and compact shop. Quite nice. The shelves are sooo high. I can’t reach them of course. I could reach till the fourth level of the shelf. Ahaha……..

Shelves of bedsheets and towels… XD

Anyway, we finished job at around 9pm. Started at 6pm. Wow. That was fast. We bought BK for dinner on our way back. Cost me $10 for 2 burgers, a medium drink, a sundae, 2 small fries and 1 small onion rings. That’s quite cheap.You can’t really get that much thing for $10 from McD. Hehehe…… Recalling it, I’m hungry for fries again… = = No good. That’s too soon for fries.

Going to do some cooking tonight. It’s cold, really hope the cooking would make us warmer. I needed to finish the vegetables in the fridge anyway. Leftovers from mum. >_> She bought quite a lot and couldn’t finish them. On the last day, she even bought a mudcake!!! And she left without touching it. T^T

oh ya.... was going to shop this to you guys but then I kept forgetting.

This is a... welcoming pack I suppose, from the UCSA (University of Canterbury Student Association). I really wanted to get one because of the student planner and the whole year calendar. It's a whole year calendar. XD

…………….somanythingstofinishihopeyouguyswouldnotbuyanythingherethatyoucannotfinishthenexttimeyouarehere.

Nice day to you!

what is the problem???

So, during lectures...

sometimes, I felt so sleepy yet I can't shut my eyes at all, despite the boring lecture. 

sometimes, I felt so energetic yet I can't stop myself from shutting my eyes, despite the interesting lecture. 

sometimes, I felt so bored and not drowsy at all, despite the boring lecture.

so... what's the problem???

one post a month ??

1st of May....

when was the last post??? Oh ya, 1st of April.....

I'm terribly sorry for the late update. !!

I didn't realized time passed so fast... It's not that fast when while I'm conscious of the time. It's especially slow during some boring lectures... But time flew during revision and relax time... >.>

For the last few days, it's been kind of hectic to me. Feel like shouting sometimes. In the middle of the night though...

First day of the semester (22nd), I handed in Biol271 research essay. I skipped Monday lectures to work on it. It was due on 5pm that day and I finished it at around 2 in the afternoon and get to attend my Psychology lectures at 3. Handed in the research essay's hard copy at 4pm. ~~!! That took me about 1-3 days to complete and honestly, I'm not very satisfied with it but I'm happy that I finished it no matter how bad it was. = =.
So, the first week started just like that, and I rush through the week with a few homework, these and that, and then started writing my Psychology research report on Saturday, officially. I think? or was it Sunday? I skipped school on Monday (just 2 lectures for the day) to finish it. It was due at 5pm. Luckily it was 5pm!!!!   Again, I'm not satisfied with it yet I'm happy that I'm over with it. I think I done poorly on the 2nd research paper... The truth was, I didn't really read all the references I have cited. = = I didn't have the time to read them. But when I skimmed through them during writing, I realized.. the topic is kinda interesting, some of the papers of course. Some are really boring. .. Too many terms and such.

So... after my Psych research report, I had to deal with my Biol 250 mid-term test on Tuesday night.  = = oh my... and Monday had almost gone !!!! ....... I don't know how did I spent my evening.... I went to bed in time of course, I promised myself not to burn the midnight oil for this year and I hope to keep up with it. I slept at 12:30 and woke up at 7 in the morning. ^^ I had a lab on 9, that's why.

After lab, went straight to the library and hit the lecture notes..... I skipped lecture, again!!! The same lecture I skipped on Monday 2 weeks in a role. >.<  Oh well,... just to get more marks in test, skip it!!!
Test was at 6 in the evening and officially ended at 8 in the evening. ~

Felt relieved when I got out of the exam room. ^^ But a bit disappointed with myself for not recalling the materials... Anyway, had dinner in school. Sis went to buy burger and fries from  Captain Ben (a fish&chips shop) from nearby and walked back to school. Awww... shouldn't have let her do that, it's too dark outside. We had dinner while watching variety show with the laptop... at the lounging area under the library... something like that la.

By the way, I have another research report due.. at end of this term, I think. Psychology research report for another course. Hm... I think this one might be lighter than the previous one. Nothing to based on just my instinct.


Experiencing these two weeks, I strongly felt like I'm in uni. lol. Lots of things need to be done within a short period of time. hahaha!!!! I have plenty of time to do that yet I didn't do anything during the holidays~~ that's why I ended up so busy and rush. ~~~

I missed watching dramas and variety shows~~~ I've downloaded them and just left them doing nothing in my hardddisk!!!! Felt sorry for them = =

The new season of Japanese drama has started and I haven't watched any of them... ~~~~~~~~ I don't have much time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



by the way, can anyone tell me what's the difference between these two????

I keep nagging, and nagging, and nagging....

I shouldn't have

... I failed my own promised. = =

I really should have updated the blog yesterday since there's quite a few things going on in my mind and I should have better written them down. Now, after one night sleep, my mind is kinda blank. O.O 

Let me recall....

From the start of the day...

9am, BIOL271 tutorial. Tutorial, that word bring's chill down my spine. = = I don't like tutorials. Why? Because, it means a small number of people doing group discussion of a topic in a small confine room or something. I'm really weak at this. I rarely talk to strangers and discussing topics with them is a VERY HUGE STEP. Besides, maybe this is my own negative thinking, I felt... inferior. hm... I'm a foreigner. A foreigner from Asian countries. I know I shouldn't have felt that way and there's no reason for me to feel so... but that's not the case. Although I'm on the same level as them (academicly...?), I can't speak out at all. ....hm... Why so? It's like I'm really scare. Really scare. I'm the type to get really nervous in front of people. I remembered clearly during Senior 3, I got so nervous that I nearly stopped talking completely in front of the class during my BM oral exercise. = = I was twisting my hands behind my back. .... Bad memories.....

Also, I find it difficult to tell somebody some interesting episodes happened in my day. Even if I'm telling it to my sister. It's frustrating that I can't get my message or excitement across. So I was thinking, maybe I should start by telling my sister stories?  I mean, I read something first, and then tell her in my own words... That might help in my explanation to others, right???? 

Back to my tutorial. I'm the only Asian in my group. And the whole group felt like.. . "Even if I said I don't really get the essay but I could still answer the questions." ... How should I follow up to that. When I said I don't understand that means I really don't understand. ...And once again, this is my own thoughts, I'm relatively very small.... ...erm... Skip this topic. 

Since 2 years ago, how I wish I could be grouped together with other Asians. At least, maybe, I would dare to talk out cause I feel that we are on the same level...maybe. ...aih... 

Actually, this group discussion thingy for this course is new. The lecturers/course coordinators introduced this learning system this year and "used" us as the white mouse for this. You see, they wanted to see if the students learn more from the Traditional Teaching method or the group discussion method. And of course, I voted for the first method in my head. To me, learning and thinking is a personal thing. It's something that going in my head and it felt kinda...private. Maybe I don't mind sharing....and maybe I do mind...

I don't know... When discussed, it felt like ...people could roughly examined where your thinking or learning or revision is... And I really don't like that. Maybe I'm a bit too self conscious and really nervous and stressed out about what people think of me. I'm afraid of people thinking negatively of me... I rather they have no thoughts about me to negative thoughts... That's selfish, I know....

Skipped the details about the tutorial...

I had Personality lecture next. ^^ Love this lecture. It's much more interesting than Cognitive's lectures. =v= I don't know...For me, I could understand Personality lectures more than Cognitive's. Cognitive is a bit difficult. lol... I'm not hardworking enough to understand it. :p
Anyway, the lecturer came late today. Around 20 minutes late?? Students left during the first 15 minutes. lol. The others sat back and wait. I wait too~

Next is laboratory. I like this lab too ^^ This course's lab is fun actually. Maybe because it's not a core course, it's much more relax and that bit easier. =w= That's why I like it. Not much pressure at all. Maybe during the test though. XD

We looked at our pulses and heartbeats. I tried my pulse first and discovered that we needed to adjust the ranges till small levels to see changes on the chart.  = = My lecturer commented that I have no pulse. lol. I did expected that...He said I'm the type that have cold hands and legs and pulses that are hard to detect. ...hm.. .. my hands are cold... legs are cold too sometimes... Oh well, we used my lab partner's pulses in the end.

We wrapped the transducer on her middle finger and a transducer belt around her waist. Next, we do some breathing exercise. Inhale, hold ; Inhale, expel; Expel, hold....we recorded her pulses and heart rates for each of the conditions and answers some questions.

The next exercise, me and my partner switched. This time, instead of using belts to wrap around finger and waist, we used big clippers to measure pulses and heart beats...I think. er... No no no. We do ECG. Electrocardiogram. It's used to see the heart exercises and detect and heart problems.

So, it started by measuring my normal pulses and heart beats. Then I get on the cycling thing and cycled for a few minutes with high frictions. My lecturer screwed it quite tight (means higher friction and need to put on more force to cycle) and it didn't help much with only one complete pedal. Another pedal was long spoiled so I could only pedal with that tiny metal. Painful la. By the time I stopped and came down from the thing, wow... dizzy la. Did I stop breathing while cycling ? = = We quickly measured my pulses and heart beats. Wow... Huge peaks. lol. It's interesting to see some differences in the readings. ~~~ Actually it's kind of interesting looking at the instruments that telling the condition of your heart beats. Really.

So... interesting lab. ^^ Fun.

After that, I went to the library to look for my sis. By then, it was already 5:20pm... Quite late. hm...

We went straight home then cause we had a dinner date with Auntie. ^^

I drove us to an Indian Restaurant - Kinara located just opposite the Hornby Hub.

We ordered 2 curries and that came with rice. It's $15 for each curry. Don't get tricked by the photos, actually they were just 2 small pots. But you can eat up to a few bowls or rice with just 1 small pot, since the flavour is so rich....

So, that's dinner....

After that, Auntie rented a dvd from a video store nearby and we spent the rest of our evening watching that particular movie. hm....

oh ya, before I forgot, let me introduce one of  my 'housemate'.

He is totally different from my old 'housemate', Mimi the Cat. >.< This guy is soo....fluffy. It's Momo the Dog.



I think I will just end the post.... it's getting quite stuffy....and long.... with all those....words...


ciao~