469 - Lockdown, anyone?

How's everyone doing during the lockdown?

Every country's situation is different. Here, we are only onto our 12th? 13th? day of lockdown. So far I am comfortable with it. Glad that the company let us take unpaid leave, we really don't want to risk it as our job is ranked having the highest risk among other health profession for some reason. I still don't really see the point in continue on operating if you guys just kept accepting patients that are not "emergency".

Anyway, moving on from that.

People thought we might get bored staying at home for that long, instead, we kinda enjoy it. You see, we rarely have time to do so while working. We only have less than 12 hours staying at home for normal days, and we work 6 days a week. We hate it. I one another off days to do normal stuffs like house chores. We only have Sundays off, and what? You expect me to clean the house that day? We are exhausted. Duh.

Next next next... I don't want to dwell on unhappy thoughts.

Sooooo, lockdown time, I got to do lots of reading. :) No the quantity of books but the period of time I get to spend on them. :))))))

In March, I read 3 books. And for April, so far I have finished 2 books, 1 of them of which I have been reading since last year, hahaha. I am reading my 6th book of the year, according to Goodreads.

So...continue on reading!! And continue on shopping for books!!! :)))

467 - Of 2019

Well, the previous 2 posts were about books and movies and dramas I have had the chance to enjoy in 2019. Now, for this, I just want to conclude things I suppose...? Geez, I'm finding reasons to update.

So, I read 8 books in 2019. Hahaha. What a declined from... years ago. I don't think I did well in 2018 too. Oh well. My movie/drama list were much better. Haha. I spent more time on my phone in 2019 so... neglecting my readings.

Going through 2019, see if I can remember any interesting happenings through the year.

Final installment of How to train your dragon series came out at around January, and we all went crazy with multiple watches in cinemas. Got the chance to watch it in IMAX in Malaysia too. SOOO HAPPY. Was damn exicited at that time, despite having watched it a few times in NZ already. Lol.

I know that I bought my current phone somewhere in March. It's a OPPO R15Pro, Nebula purple colour I think? Can't really remember the name. Well, uptill now, I don't have much complain about it yet. I adopted the idea of changing phones within 2 years, to avoid having said phone when dead suddenly on me. I don't want to experience another Samsung Galaxy SII episode again. That was a nightmare. I lost all my South Island trip photos and my sis's graduation photos as well. Urgh. Same situation will go for my laptop too. Not going to be using it long, unless I bought a really expensive one that worth keeping long. The one we bought from Kuching, bland. I mean, it looked the same as every laptop on display in the store. I want a Dell XPS, but what did the salesman say? It's not much different bla bla and more expensive. I know it's more expensive, but with the functions it has, I think it is reasonable. But then, they don't have any stock on hand, if I want one, they will need to order it. What the heck. I might as well just get one from NZ. They always have stock unless I want it customised. Geez. So in the end, we get a bland looking laptop from Acer. It looked totally the same as the one sis's is using. I sometimes mistook it. Only the stickers on the keyboard area are differerent. So frustrating! And I bought antivirus for my laptop too. Finally. Or else just relying on the accompanied software, I don't think it was enough.

Something sad happened somewhere in March. Mass shooting. Where? In FREAKING NEW ZEALAND. And of all places, CHRISTCHURCH. What is wrong with this people?!!! Condolences to all the people involved. I was so damn happy that the Prime Minister passed the gun control bill in NZ. It was so fast that it shook the whole world. I applaud the PM for this. My wording might be abit weird, but you get the idea what I am saying.

Somewhere in April, we got MAP678. Yay. Father was with us in NZ.

In May, Bulbasaur was so damn cute! My first time doing Medical Check in NZ, after all this year. And wow, the speed was so fast! Just about 2 hours? Every procedure done. Or maybe a bit less than that. Not like in Kuching, OMG. Need to arrive there so early in the morning before the clinic opens and queue for it. Even though we have made an appointment for it. Well, in NZ, I think they have like only a few slots available each day for it, so everything is faster. And once again, I experienced the lightheaded, and almost blackout. I hate doing blood test. Ah! I remembered this. Weeks later, or so, I went back again for another blood test. Geeezzzz. That time round, I was prepared for it. The first time I wasn't expected that, so maybe I got a bit panic when I left the room. What with the sudden black patches I kept seeing everywhere. Took me quite sometime to recover in the Sitting Area.
I think it was somewhere in May, I went into a small Hyun Bin frenzy mode. I tore every part of weibo and so to look for his movies. Of all, I like the 4 movies I watched multiple times of. The Swindlers, Confidential Assignment, Rampant, and The Negotiation. I was in awe for Confidential Assignment. Man! The man could hit and punch. It was so enjoyable to watch him hit stuffs. Same for Rampant. He's cutting zombie with that big blade. And maybe he was the main actor, he's so un-killable. Hahahahahaha.  For The Negotiation, wow. A villain. GOOOOD.

June... July... August...

SEPTEMBER. Huh?? Did anything happened in September? No...?

Ok, October. Charles's Wedding!!  Congratulations once again! Even though none of you are reading this. Hahaha. We went Australia for this. And followed by a small trip to Gold Coast. :)
By the way, I found peanut butter in NZ!! I am ignoring all the other peanut butter I saw in the supermarket. They are tasteless. I found this peanut butter that actually tasted something and nice! Checked the label, Made in USA. Hahahahaha!!!!

November??? Can't remember..

December...Oh well. I can't remember much. HAhahahahaha


All around the year, I could just recalled that, we went to quite a number of places to try new food. We went for Crepes, we went for Japanese restaurants we never been before. And the only new ones I enjoyed immensely was tomi. THE FOOD WAS SO DELICIOUS.

Some colleagues left for home etc. Some new trainees. Some useless colleagues.

Most important of all, I have been shipping 00Q so hard this year. OMG. The new 007 movie is coming out too!!!

I started playing Switch more towards the end of the year. We have now Sypro, Pokemon Shield, Ni no Kuni, Zelda, Pokemon Evee, Dawn of the New Riders...etc.

And on the sad note, ARASHI is going on hiatus at the end of 2020. This they announced beginning of the year in 2019. ..This.. uptill now I am still frustrated and upset. For their 20th anniversary, they tried lots of things. They opened up social media accounts. Twitter, YouTube, Weibo and Instagram. I am ignoring tiktok because I don't have one and I find it weird. They are trying to get close to their fans. Furthermore, they released all their singles in digital platforms too! The first group in the company to do this. Their latest release is on digital too! There's no updates whether they will be releasing the CDs not... I want CDs to be honest. I like physical copies. To mark their 20th anniversary, recently they collaborated with Netflix to release a their own documentary. I think I might need some courage to watch that. I can't really deal with seeing frustrated Jun-san. After the announcement, all I want to do is give him a hug and hope for the best for him. He poured so much into this, and like he said, going into hiatus and stopping everything he had been doing all this years, was like killing the thing he love the most with his own hands. I couldn't even begin to imagine how that feels. That was what got me so angry and frustrated.



There goes my mood....

462

First day of the November. The previous post was the first day of October.

So, up till now, updates...updates..

Yep, I am still hip deep in the ship and fanfictions. I have been rereading fics too. Hahahaha.

My shifts are alright right now. The colleague I mentioned that of whom going to take long leave? She's coming back in a weeks time, so I am not covering her shift anymore, but I am taking others' shift. Weird. Just let me day off. Duh.

The new shifts have put me and sis on Sundays for coming weeks. NO. We don't work on Sundays. We specifically said so. I am not taking the risk. We are ok to work Monday to Saturday, but not Sunday. If our hours are not enough, then put in more for weekdays. Not Sundays. Sunday is our church day.

I have started reading <Wizards of Once> 2nd book and <Good Omens>. <Good Omens> I read it kind of routinely every night, to get the the reading done. Or else I will keep putting it on hold. I need to read more. Really. I keep buying books, but didn't try hard enough to spend time on them. What's the matter with me... Anyway, <Good Omens> is an interesting read. I started with watching the Amazon series first, then get in on the book. I like how the characters are portrayed in the series. When I read the book, it's a bit different. I find that refreshing. I mean, you will form your own interpretation of the characters via their interactions. By the way, I find that I like to read in some place quiet. I can't really concentrate on my reading when the television is on. I find people's voice distracting, especially coming out from the television. More so if it's dramas. Game shows are alright? Hmm.. I'm not sure I think.

Hm....moving on. Not much to watch in the cinemas recently. I'm waiting for KNIVES OUT and MOTHERLESS BROOKLYN. For now, I think my local cinemas are scheduling session times for KNIVES OUT, but not the other one. Meh. Why not???



Watching Maleficent on Sunday. I'm not looking forward to that.

436 I passed!!! In fact, with nice colours!

Yeeeeppppp. With nice colours!!! For me.

An A- and a B-. Hahahahaha. I thought my BIOL result would be lower than my PSYC, but... that's a surprise. My lecturer liked what she read on my paper. Wow. Thank you very much.

And for PSYC, a B-, hmmm... Well, I didn't really do well in the first semester, so a B- for a whole-year-result, I think that's kind of good.

Yeeehaaa!!!

I am so happy I'm not disappointing my parents one more time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

I WAS SO WORRIED!!!!!

WHAT IF I FAIL?!!

I want to graduate with DOUBLE-MAJOR not a single major. To do that, I need to pass both courses. Hahahahahahahahahaha



I can't really organised my thoughts right now. That's why I keep repeating words. ahahahahahahaha

433

How do I start this....

nah.... just start however it goes.

So, I finished all my exams last, last week. I'm officially on holiday now. woohooo.

But for some reasons I don't feel that fulfilling or relax at all......Stress level is building up hahahahahahahahaha!!!!

I can't picture myself being in a workforce. Really.... Can't imagine it at all. But, I would want a office job. I mean, looking at computer or papers only are much more comfortable than facing people directly. OR, I can't work as a assistant to some professions. I mean, I'll not hold any direct responsibility to the customers or patients. I am just there to help the professionals.

aihh,,,,,, So somewhere like a hospital? I wonder... with my degree, would they even accept me to work in a hospital.

Before all of that, I need to start on my CV. CV.......

Next,  my recent obsessed is ONE PIECE and おそまつさん~~~ Beside than those, I am waiting for Haikyuu second season to finish. I want to watch it in one goal, since it is a sports anime. I don't want to wait for a week to finish a match!!

热血番要一次性看几话才过瘾。真的。

Haikyuu很热血哟哦哦哦！！！ 有机会要看看！！ 强推荐！！

OP，Law桑帅死了！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！ 天啊。当初在Saobody刚出场的时候，比起Kid，更喜欢这个看起来...不真么显摆的Law。还有竟然带着一头白熊，奇怪的组合。由于出自北部，所以带着一头白熊很正常？？？？ 哈哈哈哈 然后和Luffy 和Kid同一战线对抗海军。哈哈哈哈哈 感觉很淡定，完全让着Luffy和Kid吵，自己不参与 XDDDD

然后！！然后！！！ 两年后到底经历了什么？！！！！！ Punk Hazard现身的时候气质不同了吧！！！！！！！！！！！！！要死。服装真好看！！！ 和草帽团比起来，可能是年龄的差距，真的很沉着，淡定。但是和草帽团待久，高冷性格开始崩坏了 XDDDD

在哪看到饭说，Law桑对Luffy的印象应该有很大的差距吧。前几次，都是特殊状况：打天龙人，和海军开战，拼死去久Ace的时候，然后昏死等等。2年后，和正常情况的Luffy待在一起，完全被吓坏了吧  噗 和想象中的不同哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

话说结盟好棒！！！！！！！！！！！！！ 看到能够和Luffy平肩而行的人物好棒！！！船长、新时代的新星、几亿的bounty等等。。。呜哇哇啊啊啊啊啊 还有，身高差莫名的萌

嗯。。。神谷さん配音也站部分原因。苏死了·····

突然好想收OP漫，就Punk Hazard 到Dressrosa 篇章。现在的篇章还进行着，再看看要不要收。然后，Sanji终于要出场了吧！！！！！！！！！！快出场啊！！！！！！！！

おそまつさん 这个···完全是个搞笑番。偶尔也有细腻的剧情啦（比如第五话）。话说，我觉得我看的东西刚好足够看懂他们的梗 XDDDD 有些地方还不足啦。。。

话说，第1话变成传说了 哈哈哈哈 玩得太开，不能收进DVD了 哈哈哈。第三话的短裤man也是。这两部分得重新收录了~~~~ 我订了DVD+特典 呵呵呵呵

完全不知道这番的走向啊。好笑是好笑，但有些剧情还真是黑暗呐。不是很清楚六兄弟之间的感情是什么状况，偶尔想想还真是残忍  囧

最喜欢十四松~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~！！！！！！！！！！ 好可爱啊。

呵呵呵呵呵呵


还有啥···· 对了，我看了SPECTRE!!! 刷了3遍！！！！！

剧情还不错，scene还真是漂亮。最喜欢的是Mexico City 的sequence。很美！！！！ 全部都很美！！主题曲很棒啊~~~！！ 应景！！ 配乐完全融入BGM!!! orchestra真心棒。

我看了那么多次，重点在于服装、007、MI6、Q！对不起，女主真的不入我眼。我关注点在Q身上。我觉得007和MI6的剧情比和女主的对手戏来的好看···· 话说，在火车上，前半段还很高冷啊，为啥换了装，性格也稍微换了？？？？？？？！！！！！or is it I'm too conscious of it?? For me, the chemistry between 007 and MI6 squad is so much more........oh well.

要不要4刷？

431

我还在哦。。。

这blog还是活着的哟。。。

只是最近我越来越烦躁了~

火气还好。

脑子一静下来，就烦躁的要死。

思绪一空闲，烦人的想法情绪啥的扑面而来。

我越来越觉得我这烦恼很不值。

我干嘛要为一个人而烦恼啊？！

我自己的事就够我烦了。

为何要为一个不怎么看重我的人而烦恼啊？

没必要吧。既然不对等，那么就放掉呗。

我很久就意识到了。这不平衡的关系。

哈哈哈哈 怎么说成这样啊。

没听起来这么严重啦。

只是我单方面的感情啦。

我个人把这段友情看的太~重了。

很明显的，对方可能不怎么看重~

嘛，也可能是对方的性格问题？

这我老早就知道。也慢慢的适应过来。

不过，太长~~~~~~~~~ 的无回应，单方面的输出，一方会很累的哟~ 精神上和情绪上。

我不知道我是不是感性还是啥，觉得这段友情那么久了，放掉很可惜呀~

呀~ 也没有要“放掉”这么严重啦~

是疏离吧~ 不要再把重心放在一个人身上~

我身边有那么一两位重视我的朋友吧。有的有的！我坚信着！

不要为一个朋友而烦了~ 哼哼哼~

对了，我说过吗？

从前从前，我因着一位朋友而流泪过。

从前，我因着误伤了一位朋友而哭了。

前几天，我因一位朋友而自个儿脑内大战，不争气的，气流开始往上冲，不过，被我压下了。

第一次，值不值得，还好。

第二次，值不值得，不错哟~当时。

第三次，我开始怀疑这段友情了。

为什么会导致成这种结果？

一半是我自己太过执着，把对方摆得太高了。

一半是对方的冷漠和嫌麻烦的性格吧~

对方是那种，有缘就一起，没缘还是怎样就说bye bye。

哈哈哈哈哈 让我深深怀疑，我这段友情到底归哪里好~

要是我说，很累还是啥的，对方会不会就说那就放掉啦，既然累了。

那几年下来的友谊到底是什么啊？！！！ 说放就放！！！！



我讨厌死这样的自己了！！！！！！！！！

烦什么烦啊！！！闪开啦！








哦对了

新年快乐~

羊年快乐~

426 I'm so freaking mad of myself sometime

I hate my life.

I'm grateful for everyone who participates in it. Honestly, I'm glad that you're in it, even if you don't give a damn.

I don't hate my life.

I hate how I act in it. I should have just be more ignorant of certain things sometimes and a get a life.

I should just stay focus on myself and not ogling's at other people's.

You know?? You can't have that so might as well get over it!

GET A FREAKING LIFE!

THERE'S NO USE DEPRESSING OVER SOMETHING YOU NEVER HAVE AND WILL NEVER HAVE.

BE CONTEND WITH FREAKING SELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

421

I rarely talk because I don't think anything I talk about is interesting.

I rarely talk because the conversations mostly ended with silence. I can't really hold long conversation. I don't really know how to elaborate my conversations.

I rarely share my interest because the responds I received kind of hurt me on many levels and I am better off not sharing in the first place.

I rarely initiate conversations because, as I said before, the topics I have in mind rarely, and I really mean RARELY, appeal to anyone.

So, I revert to giving short comments or not talking at all.

It's not that I don't want to talk. I know that I'm not confident and I know that I shouldn't be, but, annoying someone while talking out of confidence is not what I wanted.

I prefer people having neutral opinions on me than leaning on the disliking me. I prefer people having no thoughts on me than having negative thoughts...

Yup. I'm paranoia. Yup. I don't like people disliking me. And yup, I'm not brave to speak out.

I just wanted to rant out...

Sometimes I really hate myself... disappointed in myself...

I pushed all of these to a side and indulged in temporary happiness. And when the positive thoughts are gone, all those negative ones come back in full force.

So pathetic...



I so wanted to shout sometimes.... scream...



I'm fine... not that anyone is asking.

420

Well, I had my first exam on Wednesday and it was fine. Really.

I wrote 10 pages, not full; but most of my coursemates had written all 16 pages of their answer booklet.

What????????

How did they do that??

Oh ya. Early preparations. 

Got it. I didn't do that. I crammed everything at the last minute. I was practically happy that I could even reached 10 pages. Woohoo~

And then, I free for roughly a week!

My second and last exam is on next Friday.

I am taking this exam with me sis. Yup. We took the same course. So, I don't want to spite her by studying for this course BECAUSE, she had exams 3 days in a row this week. Till Saturday.

Really, I don't want to spite her. And also, I am lazy. 

Reasons reasons reasons. There's always reasons to ditch studying.

ok... so... how's life??? 

Not much happened, as usual. No interesting stories, just some old routine that I somehow enjoy repeating everyday. I barely talk to someone else intentionally. I mean, I don't go and find friends to talk. You get what I mean? You see, I don't think anything I talk about is interesting at all and can hold anyone's attention span for more than a minute. So, keeping quiet might be the best way to avoid the 'cold treatment'. 

That said, I still prefer listening to others' conversations. In Uni, the things different from high school, from my point of view, are that drinking and dancing (sort of) are normal. I mean, back in Kuching, the most I would go was eating or drinking tea with friends passed midnight. And then no more. Comparing my life then to my uni friends' lives, I sounded so... ha! I don't know. Different. Uni friends are crazy, sometimes. ... 

I'm still happy to meet them, though a bit crazy sometimes. Did I mention? All of my friends are not from around here. Well, I mean their ethnicity. I didn't make any Kiwi friends. How sad. 

I can't even maintain my relationships with my old friends I could I even make new friends? 

419 ohmygawd

Just heard some overwhelming things from my friend.

and all I was thinking during that time was screaming "OH MY GAWD!" in my head.

and then I went on and rant out "ohmygawd" throughout the conversation. 

I don't know what my reaction is, in person, as the conversation was in text messages. 

... I wonder what my real live reaction would be like...

overwhelming things. ya. cool. 

I'm not sharing and yes, I'm that damn selfish. 

So, exam week starts tomorrow, and the duration is 2 weeks. 

I have 2 exams during this duration, as I had one before the study break. One in each week. 

The first one is on this coming Wednesday, at 1430 and last for 3 hours. Psychology paper. Essay questions. Short essay questions. Well, this is a rather tough course. They did give us the questionsssss before the exams, but, it's quite a lot to prepare anyway. AND! I'm sooooooo lazy and stubborn to study. The lectures are not that easy to understand, to me. I'm not talking about other people. 

Another one would be Biology paper. The exam questions would be one essay out of 2 questions and all others would be short answer questions. That might be easier to answer but many materials to learn.

I really hope I would be NOT THAT STUBBORN AND GET REALLY FOCUS ON MY STUDIES! 

After talking to me friend, I have SOOO many negative feelings towards myself. I hope I wouldn't develop any loathing feelings towards myself someday....

OH GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

I'm still overwhelmed!!!

418

For some reasons, I'm feeling a bit thrilled for the whole day!

Well, maybe it's because I just finished my test last night!!!!!!!! YEAHHHHH.

I don't think I did REALLY well in it, but, it's over. It's in the past. I can't do anything about it. Besides, I would be getting the results tomorrow or on Friday. Fast, isn't it... Speed marking by my lecturer. :D Let me tell you, though my class is not a big one, still, one person marking for the whole class in just.. few days, it's still pushing. She sounded so excited to be leaving soon, hahaha!!

She would be out be out of reach for the next 3 weeks. ^^ We will be having another lecturer for the time being, don't worry.

I didn't really get what she was saying about her own ..situations but I think she didn't really sleep much since last night. And had many caffeine running in her systems.

Her lecture was kind of fun today, the topic. I mean, all the topics were interesting, but today seems a bit different...lol.. I don't really know how to put it. Maybe it's the way she talked about it. Too much caffeine and stuff...... XDDDD

So, I had only 2 lectures today. Awesome.

After yesterday's cramming 4 lecture materials into my head, today felt like a small holiday to me. All smiles despite I can't understand most of the things my lecturer was talking about in Psyc. ... technical stuffs...

Had lunch at around 2 something and spending the the next few hours holding up in the public library.

ONLINE. 

What else, duh.

My life source is internet.

So what.



Another good news is that, my cd is finally arriving~!

Been waiting for it since.. when.. end of April. I was anxious and worried whether the package had went missing while sailing to NZ...

Luckily it didn't.

It's a limited edition CD single.

I wouldn't want to miss that....



It's Thursday tomorrow~~~ <X-Men: Days of Future Past> starts showing in Cinemas in NZ~~~ yeahhhhhh...

417

Hello~~~~~~~~

Mid-term break is over and second term of the first half year of 2014 has started~
Aren't you excited?! !!!!!

NOPE.

It was a 3 weeks term break. How awesome it was!!! During that time, I left my assignment till the last half week and that was when I realized I have a mid-term test on Monday, the first day of second term.

OH HELL…. Everything breaks loose.

It was kind of disaster. Talking about my attitude actually. You see, I’m LAZY.. V-E-R-Y LAZY. So, when I found out that I have a test coming out, you still put everything to the last minute!! I didn't even think of finishing my assignment as soon as possible! I mean, I've been wanting to finish it off since the second week, and yet, there I was, still wandering around without even open a Word document to write something. NOPE. I am just too lazy.

Anyway, I finished my assignment officially on Sunday, around 1pm. So, you think I would go straight into study? Hell ya I did!!! I pulled out my lecture notes and looked at the questions and started patching the answers from the readings. But, my motivations and enthusiasm kinda … slipping away with every minute of my concentration. At the end I kinda just aimlessly surfing the web. HAHAHAHA!

Browsing the web, looking at food pictures in tumblr…. Till the library closed at 4pm. HA!! That’s when I got kinda frustrated with myself. We didn’t head home, we went to the school library. There, I did do my study…really now. I don’t have much time to study next day before my test. I have lecture and lab back to back till 6pm, and 6pm was the start of my test time, till 8pm. Well, lab normally don’t end that late, so.. there’s like roughly an hour for me to try and cramp everything I can into my mind. Well, that outcome wasn’t pretty.  

I got two of the well-learned short essay questions in the test, good for me. And I practically tried to rack my brain to put everything I remember into my writing. But well~ I’m not good at that. I ended up forgetting parts of it. Later when I told my sis about it, she said….and I forgot what she said. I was thinking about that just seconds ago! Heck! Now I don’t remember things that not far away ago so you just imagine what my test answer looked like. = = And for the MCQ (multiple choice questions, yup.. I still get that sometimes. Especially Psych’s test.), I totally… freaked out on those. To be honest, I didn’t quite any part of the materials for MCQ. I kinda focused on the short essay questions. You see, I was kind of confident with that, with just 3 questions, you could get 45%!!!! Well.. we know how that turn out now.

So… nothing more to comment on this anymore.

We had BK’s burgers and McD’s nugget for dinner that night! Hehehehehehehe~~~ I know I was kind of depressing then, but me sis said there’s nothing you could do about that and let’s just celebrate that you’ve just got something done. Ya. I’ll live with that.

It’s Wednesday. My sis turn to have her test from 6-8pm. Now I’m wondering what we are going to have for dinner……Takeaway definitely. I wouldn’t want to cook when I get home at this hour. It’s just a waste of time. And I wouldn’t be able to eat till maybe later than 9pm. And really, I have ran out of idea what to cook… I really hate that there’s always someone asking what am I eating every night. That’s makes me wanna slap my food on that said person’s face. I would tell if I want to, but asking as if it’s a routine every day? That’s really frustrating! And if I have the same food I mean, within a week, the word “again” would be heard.

Oh MAN!!!!!! SHUT UP!!!! GO AWAY!!!!!!!

IT’S SO STRESSFUL SOMETIMES TO EVEN THINK OF DINNER!! You see, after washing my hair, I would DEFINITELY NOT COOK. I just had my hair wash, why would get it oily so fast?! It would get oily in just 2 days maybe and I would cook by then. Next, I am very particular with the ingredients used. Say, I want to cook Green Curry. If there’s no potatoes, there’s a VERY HIGH CHANCE that I’m not going to cook that; if I want to cook black sauce pork or beef, no preserved mushroom, not cooking. … My sis got frustrated with me sometimes, saying that I’m soooo difficult. Ya. I am. So? I’m not making anyone miserable, just meself and her. No big deal. Besides, I’m not an adventurer.

I said this many times, I don’t eat things that I have no idea what it is. For example, when I try something new, I REALLY WANT TO know what it is made of, what are the ingredients and stuffs. And if I don’t like it, I AM NOT EATING. If I do eat it eventually, it’s because I’m ….. “giving you face”. Not that I like it. Please appreciate my trying effort. Don’t continue on ranting that I’m “lousy” or I’m not “adventurous”…..Just don’t. I have heard of that for maaaaannny years. You have no idea. Unless I said so, not everything tastes nice to me if I did indeed eat whatever is offered. Please DON’T ASSUME. I don’t try things that I have no idea what its basic taste is. It might end up revolting to me and I really hate that experience. I have tons of things that would make me throw up, so no, thank you. I don’t want to add another into the list.  

Hmmm… and then I realised… I closing myself off more and more… I rarely let me mask off in front of others…. Beside my family and close friends…I think. Sometimes, not even my family know what I’m thinking. Hahaha….. I don’t share…. That’s why.

Awww… it’s still another hour to go before sis finished her test……

What to eat tonight????????????????!!!!!

Oh ya… my birthday greetings last month. I had a friend that greeted me on time! (at their time zone of course ~) Thank you~!!!

And also to the wishes via text messages! Overseas and locals! I really appreciate it!!!

Another thing I want to write down in this entry. I finished the second Hiccup book!!!! Yippee!!!!!!!! I spent the whole day, roughly, to finish it! HAHAHA. You see, I have only 2 lectures today. XD

About the book, once again, I really think that it’s not a very happy story. But still, it’s not tragedy…uptill now. I’m glad of the little successes when the story progress. I mean, I like it when Hiccup came out of dangerous situations successfully, although no one seems to think twice how he did that. But I really like that part of him. His sarcastic and quick thinker!! Awwww and Toothless is just…. Cute in his own ways. Maybe it’s just reading too much into the lines, but I think that Hiccup and Toothless relationship is getting smoother. I mean, Toothless is still lazy and stubborn, but he still get things done when Hiccup ask him too, with promises of rewards of course. HAHA. I like that he doesn’t abandon Hiccup when they encounter dangers. There’s a scene where the other dragons shouted “Desert” when they saw some bigger, deadlier dragons running towards them. Then went and wanted to abandon their masters…

Well, the second book was nice too!! Really enjoyed it! :D It’s a nice past time~~~~~~~ Sometimes when I read about the stupidity of the Hooligan Tribe, I really want to just pluck them out and bang their heads together. Really… they don’t think….

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the downside of leaving on the country which is on the 'most east' side of the world is that,

no one would be greeting you first before your own calendar do so. ..


and by the time people start greeting you, it would mostly due to calendar reminders or just following other people's greeting footsteps.

Actually, this is kinda disappointing.



sorry, I'm a tad bit emotional right now.

No, scratch that. I'm VERY EMOTIONAL right now.


It's 0:19 now, the next day... me here. So, ... that's the reason why.

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敲字敲字敲字

没什么主题所以写不出半个字 哈

那要怎么办呢

从叙述心情着手

嘛 就那样的把心情分享出去么

也对 不分享的话 就真的没什么东西好写了

写东西就是把想法分享出去吧

写出来的东西能左右别人读后对自身的看法

那样写 别人那样觉得 这样写 别人就有此想法

所以 把文笔文采练好也未必没什么其他意义

至少 能够通过自个儿写的东西影响左右其他人

某种意义上达到控制他人的权利

嘛 这样想有点强词夺理吧

那 至少能够控制他人对自身的看法吧

没人说写下的东西要真实啊

也可以借鉴别人的经历之类的来写写

可以写故事 童话 喜剧 诗词 没人说不可

里面写的东西 夸张的话 也没人会真的相信曾经发生

就算真的发生 让其他人对其存疑惑也未必不好啊

模棱两可 呵 没人真的了解你呢

说起来可能自私了点 不过这样也是变相在保护自己不是

难道不是吗

我可不知道了 别人对你的了解就维持在水平面上

不是很深入的了解 说不认识你也太失礼

没人能把你伤的很深 也没人能变相的出卖你

可能对方觉得已经把你伤的很深 但是却只是水面上的一波纹理

可能对方只是无意间的说出你的心里话 但是却已经触摸到心底的底线

变相的出卖 也不一定指什么大事情

心里的底线一经触摸 是很难完璧归赵的

这可能是极端人的想法 宽宏大量的人可能觉得没什么

这样的想法保持下去 嘿 深交的朋友没几个 也接近无的状态吧

怕被伤害 对谁都半信半疑 和人保持距离

完全不分享 自私的收起来 自个儿消化

所以才会有点孤单

不 并不是一点 是很

所以啊 就那么几个深交的话 会抓牢不放

甚至导致对方厌烦的可能

这样想着 想说对方不会被自己烦么 对方不会嫌弃自己么 对方有自己那般重视这段深交么

还是说 认为的深交只是单方面 对于对方是可有可无的存在

这样的想法渐渐的堆积 到达一定程度 会发生什么事情 会变成怎样呢

最初 应该是很生自个儿的气 为什么要这样想 为什么要这样的放不开

对方真的那么重要么 不过是一个人啊 深交 朋友 之类的 慢慢找啊

自己为什么要把自身的地位 嗯 放到如此的底呢 委屈不

然后就会倒回来想 为什么深交就那么几位

问题又跑回原题了

为什么不和他人分享 这样能有好多朋友喲 不是水平面上的朋友

是那种能够持续变成深交的哟

不是吗

403 来了~~~~~~~~ 吃吃吃

我没什么想说的！！！！

我只是想来放图的！！！！！！！

我最近吃的东西~~~~~~~~~~~~~

=w=

看起来很好吃吧 =w= 

第一、二张是星期日的午餐~ 

是日本餐哦~ 应该看得出吧。Samurai Bowl. 

上半年就和妹妹一直想找时间来吃。结果挖不出时间。现在，趁着mid-term break 最后一天，就算忙到半死也去吃了。

菜色好多哟~~~ 比上次去的另一间多。当然啦，这间比较有历史性了啦。点餐的时候，要自己去counter/cashier 那里点，然后就直接付钱了。水的话，靠墙的一角有小桌子。上面摆着很多玻璃杯和几壶塑料水壶。原来水是免费的~~~~~~~~~~ 要别的话，就得另外点很付钱了。原来综艺节目上艺人们去餐厅吃的时候，桌上一定有与这类似的玻璃杯原来是这个意思啊~~~ 餐厅都自动为顾客们准备的。=w=

第一张是 karage don~~ 炸鸡···饭。 ^^ 好吃哟~~~~~~~~~~~ 

第二张是 curry ramen .这个也不错！我妹点的。原以为把curry当成面汤的话，会有点粗糙/浓厚，不过不会啊，很柔和~ 好吃~~~~~ 然后上面那几片肉是所谓的叉烧~ 日本人的叉烧~

然后，影影约约能够看到，咱们也点了寿司,8个。总价钱整数是$35.

第三张是 pepperoni pizza。这家伙话了我 $4.90. 价钱不错~~ 不过味道不是很满意。味道很淡啊。。。以后还是买$.9.90 的BBQ 什么的好了。比较好吃··· 不过这次也买了garlic bread 和 fries, 不错啦。

第四张是昨天（星期二）的午餐。以前也介绍过了。Kebab on chips with tomato and barbeque sauce. 然后对面那个是 fried rice... 我说，menu 上明明写着 HONEY Fried Rice，可为什么你们跑去拿自助餐的 Egg Fried Rice 啊？！我家妹妹就是不想吃egg fried rice 才要点 Honey fried rice 啊！！！ 然后，原以为这样就算了，结果就这样直接装盘算钱。喂！！ HONEY哪去？！！！ 难道Egg Fried Rice 里面有honey ?!!! 

吃的时候，失望透透顶顶了。= = 没什么嘛，炒饭。我妹说和去年我们自己炒的没差= = 我跑去拿酱油，淋饭。嗯，比较有味道了。 。。

最后一张是今天的午餐~ beef penang curry. 

今天天气很冷~~~ 早上起来就下雨了。讨厌！！妹妹早上9点有课，没办法啦···

下午1点多的时候，上课上到一半，发现，外面在 raining ice. =口= 太冷了吗？是冰还是雪我不清楚啦。来时很大，不过很短暂。

课结束后，进了车。就开始下大雨了。~哇~ 幸亏咱俩走的快 。。。。

然后，觉得很冷，所以就想吃热的东西。先说，不吃昨天刚吃过的kebab,所以就跑去吃 Thai Food 了。嘿嘿，比想象中的好吃哦~ 嘛。。。我没吃过，不过味道不错哟~ 改天吃吃他们的黄梨饭 =w=

其实，现在倒回去看第一和第二张的时候，还是会觉得很饿··············好想再吃啊！！！！！

不过有点不行，价钱不是很便宜啊！！！！！ >.<

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嘴巴内没事了~~~~~~ 吃什么东西都没问题了~~~~ 哈哈哈哈哈哈

最近发现，上课比较常咳嗽。为了避免吵到别人，吃fisherman 糖。立刻就静静了呢，我。

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好冷！！！！ 明天给我个阳光普照！！！！！！！！

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A full week after the last post. ^^ Yeah.

I kind of make my mind trying to update the blog at least once a week. To make it more lively. ^^ Even if I have nothing to update it with.

The last post was about starting the holidays, right?

This time would be about finishing my remaining week of the holiday doing SLOWMATION. (recognize the term? I used in… a few post earlier…, I’m just so lazy to explain it again. In short, it’s a small video with pictures.) Anyway, I started meeting up with my partner of the project since yesterday. Hahaha. I wasn’t shock to find out that she hasn’t finish the paper. Lol. I was expecting that. BECAUSE, IT’S HOLIDAY. WHO’S DOING HOMEWORK BESIDES THE HARDWORKING ONES?!!!!  And from there, we still can’t really focus, still kind of laid back. Not in the mood to do the project. 

So, we finished reading the paper yesterday and agreed that we should kind of summarised the whole thing up to make writing the script easier. 

Hahaha. By the time I left school, I don't even want to touch the paper anymore. >.< All I want to do is watch videos or movies or concerts. XD 

... I don't like coughs. I hate coughing!!! It pains sooooooo much. = = When I cough, my whole self shook, quite vigorously. >.> Makes it seems sooo serious (although it IS serious...) During nighttime, in bed, it gets much worse. I cough and cough and cough through the night. I only felt better when I sit up. How ON EARTH AM I GONNA SLEEP?!!!! I'm not into adopting a new style for sleeping. No thanks. I vomited out something last night, but not enough apparently to make me feel better. = = This morning I was once again on the edge of vomiting, but this time, there's NOTHING coming out. Oh.... I have not eaten anything before vomiting... Not even water came out.... 

While typing I have been wondering... What have I forgotten... and now I think I recall what it is... Typing in Mandarin. 

So, switching to Mandarin now.

中文~来了。

我就不做自己文章的翻译了。翻着都别扭。

晚上睡觉真的很不舒服。咳嗽咳到——很火大。夜阑人静的时候一个人在那拼命的咳···多破坏气氛。而且睡眠时间也被牺牲掉了。

这次是今年第二次生病了。往年，我来这，一年只生病一次，就够好受了。今年第二出现了，而且离第一次也不是很久诶！！！

。。。家里有别人就这样 = =  他们一生病，我铁定生病的。我一病，就不好收拾了。感染过程蛮长，然后病发的时候很严重，而且通常一两天。接着就是缓和的时间，这个很长啊····很长的过程。以为要好了，结果又来个猛烈的咳嗽什么的，才发现，啊···离痊愈还很久呢。

讨厌！！！！！！！！！ 不喜欢咳嗽！！！ 发烧还好对付。睡个一两天的觉，就大概可以了。咳嗽不能啊！！！ 去死啦！！！
咳嗽咳到一半才发现，已经在流泪了 = = 不是那种一滴两滴的。双眼已经湿了，然后眼泪开始从眼角流出了····



然后~

星期二。又跑来学校做SLOWMATION了。今天比较有成就~ 找了几个paper做reference 然后咱们的storyboard 也出来了~~~~~~~~~~~ 今天的任务是要把script写好吧。好吧···看看今晚的心情。~


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一个星期过去了。前几天和母亲谈了状况。她说应该不是长牙吧（耶！）。只是热到吧。不过也奇怪啊，我通常不会这样的啊。热到也不会在嘴巴里出状况··· 所以，最近每天早上有盐水漱口， 然后用冷水（家里的自来水）冰着嘴里的肉。现在感觉好些了，不过吃东西的时候还是很辛苦。

然后，那肉团没那么大了，没那么嚣张了。

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最近，天气越来越暖了呢~~~ 9月份要来了~ 春季要来了~~~~ 希望来个暖暖的春季吧！！！ 冷天气退散！